Escape.

ima hurt! yesh, ima really hurt..

2008-04-18T08:22:00.000+08:00

ima feeling so hurt now. ive been crying ever since i saw that blog entry. am i over-sensitive? am i thinking too much? i should trust him right? i shouldnt question him about that right? someone tell me.. tell me am i wrong?

i shouldnt have gone blog-browsing. i shouldnt be so nosy and look around. what did i get? hurt! my heart sanks when i read those words. my heart breaks when i carry on reading.. nothing can cheer me up right now..

thanks! i know eu order mac for me, with my fave strawberry sundae. but.. i dun feel like having anything. i got no appetite to enjoy my fave food. i feel so sick now. i feel like puking. i having bad gastric.

thing hasnt been good for me recently. out of job. now this. fcuk! what have i done? i did so much for him. i gave up so much. i look forward to all those bright future with eu. i have been planning how to celebrate ure bdae for eu. i want all the best just for eu. why do i have to see those stuff. why cant i pretend nothing has happened? ima telling myself is all fake. im seeing double. its not eu. but i cant..

i cant calm myself down at all. i cant be alone for any second. all i want is a simple life with just eu & me. with eu around ima the most blessed lady in this world. i dunwn my dreams to be shuttered by all this fcuking shit. i trust eu, but why do eu have to hurt me in this way.. i agree im playful at times where i wana go drink, go club. but i can say i really giving up all these for eu as i know eu hate it so much.

i have noone to turn to now. ima feeling so lost now. i falled deeply for eu. but please dun throw me away. its hurt when eu bring up the "breakup" thingy. i wana say okay, fine. but i cant. cos i know i wont feel good letting eu go. cos i dunwn to let go of what i have of eu. i have so much memories of eu. i jump into this r/s with eu cos i know eu are the one. i dunwn to end everything just like that. i dunwn to let go of what i have build up with eu, for eu.

please dun..

fcuking piss-ed*!

2008-04-16T10:17:00.000+08:00

i really damn piss-ed* off with the kinda management they have can? ima the one got hurt okays? idiotic superior i have in this tootpid company. ya. a damn big company but with idiotic people!!!

)):

i miss-ed* work for 3days. due to over relcutant to turn up for work. and secondly i just hate facing my supervisor larh. cb! give me attitude when ima leaving. bad mouth me. ya, and the toopid manager side with them so much that she say is i over-sensitive and i should grow up with my thinking! fcuk up can?!

wah.. i super angry till i speechless larh. anyway, also gud larh, i dun have to go back to the toopid place anymore. im FREE! but.. ima out of job. )):

haish.. i need to whine. i got so much to say and complain. HELP~! i dun feel gud at all..

Story from A Husband...

2008-04-15T18:10:00.000+08:00

ima gonna share a touching story which made me tears. (= trust me, read it slowly. it will touch eu.. thou its kinda long, but be patience and read till the end.

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy..

I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said,

Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.. But I couldn't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.?

I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner.

I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body.

This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry..

She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly,

Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded.

The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old.

So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

physically&mentallyDRAINED*

2007-11-29T22:00:00.000+08:00

im TIRED!* damn shag can?! i dunno what makes me so tired, i just feeling so sick everyday. and for no special reasons, i start getting migraine every now and then.. i dun like the feeling of it. sometimes work till have way, i really can feel im gonna black-out any minute.. if not is i will feel so giddy larh. ):
haish.. what is happening to me again?!

sorry peeps, i know i hasn't been updating. i should change my blogskin but i didn't at all. but still i wana THANKS my xinhui fer helping me find some beautiful blogskins. i lurve most of them but i dunno which to choose. haahs* i promise i will update this weekend. (:

yeah~! DECEMEMBER ish here!!!
meaning X'MAS ish around the corner le. (:
i hope tish year i will have a lovely white x'mas and many many pressies! =D
but year 2007 ish gonna end in one months time. =/
have to plan a new NEW YEAR RESOLUTION again and hopefully i can achieve some of them.
heehs*

i need more rest i guess..
but.. i cant sleep at all. and worst, i can have those stupid dreams in the middle of the night and waking up either in tears or fright.
sigh~
tink im feeling stress once again..
whenever im stressup i will have all stupid thing coming my way..
someone please guide me.. im really physically & mentally DRAINED*...

i miss my dear girlies so much! but.. do they miss me too?
haish..
will anyone bother if im gone one day?

Personality Test

2007-10-26T17:33:00.000+08:00

Went Blog-Browsing and found tish interesting site on XinHui's blog. (:
a Personality Test which ish quite true fer me. hee.
Below ish my test results. ((:
Click HERE!

Your Score: 6 - the Questioner

you chose CY - your Enneagram type is SIX (aka "The Loyalist").

"I am affectionate and skeptical"

Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative.

How to Get Along with Me

Be direct and clear.
Listen to me carefully.
Don't judge me for my anxiety.
Work things through with me.
Reassure me that everything is OK between us.
Laugh and make jokes with me.
Gently push me toward new experiences.
Try not to overreact to my overreacting.

What I Like About Being a SIX

being committed and faithful to family and friends
being responsible and hardworking
being compassionate toward others
having intellect and wit
being a nonconformist
confronting danger bravely
being direct and assertive

What's Hard About Being a SIX

the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind
procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself
fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of
exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger
wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right
being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations

SIXes as Children Often

are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and stubborn
are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger
form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent
look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority and rebel
are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families, and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent

SIXes as Parents

are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty
are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence
worry more than most that their children will get hurt
sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries

+._I MISS-ed_.+

2007-10-25T22:54:00.000+08:00

I MISS-ed MY GIRLIES!

oh dear~! its been ages ever since i last saw my dear girls. =/

girls, still remeber JAAR? JJ, ANNE, AUDREY & RAIN.

my greatest gift in poly ish to have euu 3 girls as my besties! suppose to be 6 of us.. but.. nvm. im still blessed to have euu 3.

but its really been so long since we last met. when's our meetup, chill-out session, clubbing and etc. ? i really hope to meet euu girls up and catch up cos i really treasure the relationship between us.

PS: I LURVE EUU GIRLS STILL..

ohmiine.. im rotting!

its gud to take a break and have a gud rest but having nthg to do ish really hectic to me can?

haahs. im gonna go bonkers by this weekend i guess, how to survive til my medical leave finish?

=//

cant sleep at night cos i slept so much in the day.

tv browsing, net browsing, magazine browsing.. whatever i can browse already browsed. do i have better things to do other than all these? oh ya, i did played panya too. but it can get so bored after a few games having played the same old golf holes.

raaaahhhhhh....

when im working, i wished to have off days. when i had my MC, im hoping to go back to work. aiyoyo, human ish really contradicting.

i wanna study. really thinking of taking part-time study but to think off i have to rush to school after work will be so tiring. and having the discipline to study and revise my work might be so hard fer me. and what will happen to me when it comes to exams and projects?

i wanna pick up another language too. i wanna japanese. all along i wana learn but i never put my heart in it at all.

i hope i can do what i wanna do before i regret..

haish.. i just cant make up my mind. ):

hmmm. okays. end here.

ciaoz..

+._BACK_.+

2007-10-22T14:59:00.000+08:00

im back! (:
HOME*SWEET*HOME!!!
never have i thought home is the best place than anywhere else. was hospitalised for 4 days. 3 nights at SGH really was a torture to me. *sigh*
anyhow, im back!
=D
its been ages since i last blog. was going through a lot of stuff. finally i decided to blog again i guess. like what some frens had said, i been MIA for awhile le. it is time i come back and ya get back to my life again.

firstly, wanna say a BIG BIG THANKS to my darling. (: THANKS fer accompanying me after your work. sorry to make euu run here and there. sorry to have let euu worried about me. here i am back with euu in yer arms. *wink* and THANKS for the bouquet of flowers. lurve them so much. cos they are pretty and smell nice.
THANKS my dear girl, von fer coming to see me. (: touch. lurve the strawberries. sorry i never pei euu much as im very weak at that moment.. i promise to meet euu up soon and we shall do whatever we lurve to do soon!
THANKS xinhue and dear's mummy fer coming. (: dunno what to say, just feel so lurve-ed* by euu people. muacks*
THANKS daddy, mummy and bro. though i did felt disappointed and sad when yer appear a dun-really-care attitude but still yer are my family. i still lurve euu people as much as i lurve myself.
THANKS to those who had msg me. (: touch-ed*

A BIG THANK EUU TO EVERYONE!

to those who dunno, im back from my operation. wondering where am i fer the pass few days? ya.. was in the hospital. kinda sad though.. but nevermind, already contented with what the above people and done fer me. epecially my dearest darling.

first operation ever.. had so much to say. hees*

but right now im actually resting and hope everything goes well and speedy recovery fer me. (:

kinda lost now as i dun really know what to blog.

shall blog again soon.

+._Valentine _.+

2007-09-21T21:00:00.000+08:00

im blog is growing spiderweb soon le.
been sucha long time since i last blog.
same old words, im busy with my work..
=//
some stuff happened at home too.
hmmm. tink now should be okays le bah.
kinda lost.. tish time really really L-O-S-T! ):
i dunno how to explain. i dunno how to express myself. i just hope someone can understand what im going thru. who knows and who does?
some will say im whineing again. but other then whineing, i really dunno what else i can do to destress.
):

changed my blog song to Valentine by Martina McBride.
lurve it.
i wana change my blogskin. anyone got any nice skin to intro?
or anyone can help me do one?
hees*

thanks dear! (: i know euu did alot to reassure me and make me feel better. thanks. i really feel safe in your arms. just that im scare to leave euu..
hmmm. euu will *piak* me when euu get to read what i write lor. haahs*
bleah! =pPp
someone ish snoring away~! =D *oppss*

counting down..
12th October going for a Pre-Admission test and CT scan. =//
kinda scare scare after hearing they might need to inject something into my veins for that CT scan. have to bring my daddy down with me cos im not 21years old yet.
thought i can hide from them about my operation de.
no choice. i let them know le.
ya.. im going for an operation on the 19th. but gotta admit to hospital on the 18th.
haish.
so mafan. applied leave le.
hmmm.
hasnt been sleeping well ever since i book the operation date.
has been feeling so emo and i often cry whenever i think about going for the operation.
):
hmmm..
NO SCAR PLEASE~!
my doctor promised to do a good job and a no-scar op.
hope he dont lie larh.
haish...

its weekend!
no plans yet.
wanna have a good rest i think.
okays larhs.
shall end here le.

idunseemtostandaplaceintheirhearts.

+._Should I ? _.+

2007-09-02T00:29:00.000+08:00

weekend its here again.
(:
morning woke up and rushed to my medical appointment.
im broke!
no shopping-spree for me AGAIN!
=/
$208 for consultation and a scope.
ex larhs. what to do.. its raffles hospital! -.-"
need to do a scan. and that scan will cos another $450. after which i must do a surgery and i dunno how much the surgery will cost.
gosh!
ya, i shouldnt go to raffles. but how much cheaper can govement hospital be?
im not rich. why must this thing happen on me?
no one understands how i feel.
why im always trouble by financial problems.
raaahhhhh`
i wish i had skipped and miss this appointment.
first - i can save that 200 bucks.
second - i can dun know about my condition.
okays.
im ranting. i need to dis-stress.
no matter how much i rant also no use. no help or solution will be given bah.
like what my boy says, im a ku-bao.
yesh i am!
in front of everyone i can be so happy.. but when im all alone, i will just cry like a baby. i need a hug! i just want to make sure im not alone. i promised myself to be strong.. but i just cant. ):

when one person suay, that person really can be damn suay.
me is a damn gud example.
first i got a not-so-gud news from the doctor. second i fell down at caueway point! its damn fraking paiseh can. fcuk! i just hate those people. ppl fell down very funny meh?! i'll make sure next time euu fell down ppl will laugh at euu too~!
idiotic. though its pain at my right tigh & my butt. but still i must rush to get my boy a new set of clothing. he get himself all wet while washing his vehicle at his factory.
anyway, its sweet to shop fer yer lurve ones.
boy, glad that euu like the top and button. sorry i bought the wrong boxer.
haahs* i should buy boxer and not boxer short. =/

haiish..
im lost.
who can guide me along?
i guess no one bah.
who really cares about me?
or do yer still rem there's a fren name RAIN?

can i make a wish? can euu grant my wish? can i?

260807 - SUNDAY! (:

2007-08-26T21:24:00.000+08:00

IT'S a SUNDAY!

yesh, its a beautiful sunday! (:

darling dun have to work. but both of us woke up at 8plus. very early right?

normally if he dun have to work on the next day, he will tends to sleep til afternoon then wake up de. but dunno why today its different. maybe he used to waking up early and also maybe he kana disturb by his sis call.

since we are awake hence we hunt for food.

even after a big piece of bread, he still complains he's hungry. that bread is really HUGE!

wahaha* so he found some junk food and starts to munch on them while watching doremon. (:

when to fetch his sis at around 11.

afterwhich we went to library to "spotcheck" on xinhue. (girl, dun angry about us going there to see euu ya.)

since xinhue will only be done by 1pm hence we decided to walk around JP.

though JP quite big but it dun really has much things to shop or lookout for bah.

anyway, my kiddy bf decided to go in TOYS 'R' US.

yesh. a kiddy place.

but we had lotsa fun in there.

take a look at below's photos and euu will know how happy i am.

the last 2 picutres are taken at kiddy palace.

walk walk walk.. and my darling's tummy start to feel hungry again.

hence we go buy our XXXL chicken and tempura for xinhue.

xinhue came and there we go buy our bubble tea.

and we bought waffles too.

back home was a table of yummy goodies.

was so full till i cant sleep. hees.

PS: I JUST LURVE EEYORE SO MUCH!

thats all for today.
=D

justlurveseeingeuusmile. (:

+._Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone _.+

2007-08-25T11:39:00.000+08:00

its been quite long since i last updated my blog.

finally its WEEKEND!

haahs* at last can have some quiet time bah.

been so stress-ed* up at work.

think the coming week i need to OT, OT and more OT! i know euu guys will ask WHY? let me explain.. as its coming to the ed of the month, i need to do what 'Cost-Saving' thingy.. 'KPI' thingy and blah blah blah. i'm already trying my best to do whatever i can during im free.. but.. i dun have ENOUGH time.. i wish i got more, but i know i cant. and we shouldnt be greedy too. =/

wana thanks my PRECIOUS so much can.

* Dear, thanks for picking me up at my office whenever euu know i wana OT. (: sorry always have to let euu wait. knowing coming to tuas side euu will sure kana jam but euu still willing to come. like what my friends had said.. i'm really a xin fu xiao nu ren. =D smoochiess. <3>

stay over at dar's place last night. now waiting for him to off work. (:

talking to xinhue as i blog and listening to MLB's songs at the same time.

wana thanks my dear von for sending me MLB's songs. din know euu will go buy their album larhs. tink im also getting when i get my pay next week. hees* oh yah, i also wanna get 881's album. heard their songs all damn nice lah. especially 'yi ren yi ban'.

okays okays.

next saturday i wanna go for shopping spree!

anybody wanna go?

but in the morning i got medical appointment at raffles hospital.

hmmm..

though xinhui had given me some courage but still i have lotsa fear with me..

dun ask me why. I'M JUST SCARE!!!

haha*

any kind soul wana accompany me go?

wana blog is because i got nice song to intro.

Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone.

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cried

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie

Is made up on your side

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it OK

I miss you

I've never felt this way before

Everything that I do

Reminds me of you

And the clothes you left

They lie on the floor

And they smell just like you

I love the things that you do

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

And when you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it OK

I miss you

We were made for each other

Out here forever

I know we were

Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I do I give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

Yeah

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear will always get me through the day

And make it OK

I miss you

this song is NICE!

haahs* keep listening.

those who are in emo mood, listen to this song and have a good cry bah.

after the rain, there's always a rainbow.

last but not least, enjoy the video too.

/.stopmakingmejealous,willeuu?

+._UPDATE!_.+

2007-08-21T20:32:00.000+08:00

UPDATE~!
very long never update le.
busy, busy and more busy. =//
everyday work and work.
only left with saturday & sunday. the only rest days i had.
i wanted MORE! yesh, im a greedy pig.
Lunar 7th Month is here again. 1 week had passed, so far so good. i'm blessed and still safe and sound. but..
im sick. a sicko pig.
2days MC. gastric problem is killing me. noone knows how uncomfy im feeling. medications dun seems to work on me. 2 doctors in 2 days. 3 different medicines. hmmm.
yah, naughty me wont finish the medicines de.
=//.
next saturday need to go raffless hospital for a checkup.
kinda scare..
do pray fer me that my nose is perfectly okay.
i mean my left nose is not okays but just hope its nothing serious or what bad..
i dun like hospital. i mean who will like. -.-"
anyway,
will update after my checkup.

me & my darling changed phone.
yups. both of us changed to w850i. i wanted w580i but he remember wrongly.
haahs* its okays dear. we are using couple phone! one black, one white. ((: THANKS!
but.. both of our phones are in service center.
just hold it fer 2 days and it kinda cockup le.
thursday it will be back into our arms le.
hees.

the past saturday, met up with my dearest von.
when buffet then shopping.
and we bought DONUTS!
yesh, 12 donuts from donuts factory!
queue was short. in less then ten mins we got what we wanted.
von said im her lucky star and will bring me along everytime she wans to buy donut.
cos, she always cant get double chocolate but when i go with her, there's tons of double chocolate on the tray. (:
i lurve donuts especially from donut factory.
bought it to surprise my dear de.
hees*
think he dunno ba.

hais..
im emo.
im weak.
i dunno what im thinking.
kinda confuse & lost.
......

+._Let's HOLD hand in hand!_.+

2007-08-11T15:44:00.000+08:00

RAIN LESSON 2: BONDINGLittle girl and her father were crossing a bridge. The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter, "Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river."

The little girl said, "No, Dad. You hold my hand."

"What's the difference?" asked the puzzled father.

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl. "If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happen you will never let my hand go."

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold ours...

phew~!
i had a difficulty in blogging or doing anyth using this com. =/
my dear's comp mouse is SPOIL!!!
wth right. dunno whats wrong with it. it jus go crazy and i can do with the mouse is click click click..
=S

not feeling very well ever since i woke up. (SORRY xinhui cant meet you up..)
-upset stomach
-nausea feeling
blah blah blah.
i just feel even more sick after lunching with xinhue and shopping around at the neighbourhood. can euu peeps imagine going lunch fer 2hrs at neighbourhood area? haaahs*
yesh we did.
spending time at the flee market thinkg wana buy this and that.
in the end i bought a winnie the pooh notebook and ruler. ((:
oh yah. feeling more sick because of the scorching sun.
its damn hot outside can?
haish. watever..

waited at home fer dear to come back.
hmmm.
thought can watch dvd together happily..
in the end.
haish.
forget it.
dun wana say liao..

anyway,
hope yer lyk the above article i share with euu.
(:
REMEMBER: hold the end of yer love ones, dun wait fer them to hold yers..

+._HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!_.+

2007-08-09T12:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

its yer 42nd Birthday TODAY! =D

this year very different, holding the birthday bash at marina instead of the national stadium.

must be a different experience and feeling i guess.

in my 20 years of living, i have yet to go for a single national day parade.

so saddist can. dun talk about the primary5 sure-go national day preview..

i was having chicken poks then. -.-"

haish.

anyway,

hope i can go to watch and celebrate this special day with so much people in one of these years.

((:

i wana watch fireworks!

every year on this special day, i will go out with my besties to catch the fireworks.

but.. as each of us has our own partner,

we no longer date anyone out to watch the fireworks together le. =/

nvm. though everyone is watching at different places,

but i think out hearts & minds are link and thinking of everyone de.

TO: JAAR!

girls, i really miss euu girls damn lots. thinking back to those days in school. skipping classes together to go for mac breakfast. go kbox together. and our clubbing nights. its been months since i last catch up with euu. really wonder have euu girls changed? i just miss those goodbye huggies. and our kisses exchange on our birthday or any special occassion. I MISS EUU DAMN LOTS!

From: RAIN..

hmmm..

i miss so many of yer. sometimes really wish we can spend more time with one another. i wana continue all my friendship/sistahoods with every single one. i dun wish to lose any of my friends half-way thru my life.

please, friends who read my blog..

do date me our when yer are free.

or let me know when yer are free so i can date euu out. (:

i really need to catch up with euu people.

MISS EUU SO MUCH.

hope yer miss me too.

okays larhs.

shall end here le.

its NATIONAL DAY!!

share with euu this special video made by JiaHui & ChongQing from 933. They changed the lyrics and they even did the video. Quite nice and funny. Njoy. (:

+._BORING.SUNDAY!_.+

2007-07-29T19:39:00.000+08:00

BORED BORED BORED!!!

its sunday. rainy day.

wanted to go visit my grandma, in the end never go..

=//

sometimes do think that i had negelected some impt stuff in my life. like my grandma. its like a month since i last met here. ): -ahma,i miss euu!-

everyone always busy with their own life. things are being miss-ed* out one by one.

i miss-ed* my dear friends. i hope they miss me too.

we always say "meetup soon!" but that soon never comes..

hais..

i just miss them so..

whole sunday gone just like that.

basically i did nothing.

-sigh-

i miss going out on sunday.

i really miss doing so much things on a weekend..

but..

life just so busy for some of us and ya.

finding time to get together is really a difficult task.

RAAHHHHH~!

200 Pounds Beauty

2007-07-28T15:27:00.000+08:00

chilly saturday.
din go fer medical checkup which i intended to do today.
so.. i have to go next saturday to do the checkup if not i will DIE!
its a checkup which the company wants all newcomers to do bah. so..
=/
anyway,
ytd was so tiring.
having to go thru a whole day orientation.
lucky got susan-mummy to accompany me.
(:

alone at my bf's house.
haahs*
just finish watching 200 Pounds Beauty.
*thumbs up* for this movie.
really damn nice can.
and like what xinhue had said, its damn touching.
and as a result,
water tap was on again.
i cried near the ending larhs.
=x

anyone knows how much to extract a widsom tooth?
i can conclude i really have a widsom tooth growing.
=/
any dental to recommend?
please dun recommend those ex dental hor, im not that wealthy enough.
wahahaha*
anyway,
really need advise from ppl who had their widsom tooth extract.
i know NS men can pluck fer FREE! so dun need advise from those NSF.
=PpP bleah!
kidding larhs.

very long never blog le.
due to my working hours.
everyday after work im so tired.
can go to bed as early as 8 or 9 plus.
but,
working at SONY still alright larhs.
coming monday gonna take over my ex-colleague's job le.
hope i can do it!
(:

okays larhs.
shall blog later.

Early Moring! =/

2007-07-22T06:17:00.000+08:00

MORNING~! =D
its raining cats and dogs outside.
chilly weather; a nice weather to sleep.
just reach home some time ago.
poor baby still has to work on a raining Sunday. ):
thanks dear! euu really did alot fer me and i really really appreciated everything that euu had done fer me. hearts euu* ((:
i cant sleep!
not having any insomnia.
its my gastric that is hurting me. its freaking damn pain and i dun even know why.
=/
arrgh!!!

anyone got 迷路兵 song?
got a few songs damn nice larhs.
dear wanted to buy their disc, we think and think in the end never buy. -.-"
haahs*
so if any kind soul has their song can send me?
i finally found their songs on imeem.
one of my favourite is 适应.
dunno why, just fell in love with this song the first time i hear it.
and i actually set this song as my bye-bye-ring-ring tone.
wahahaha*
=D
or should i just go get their album?
the last cd i have ever bought is Jay's previous album, which is like last year.
hmmm.
anyway, i shall upload the song here to share with euu guys.

im hungry! hungry hungry!
=x
im getting fat again.
haiish.
slim down awhile den gain back weight when i dun maintain.
time flies.. its 6plus in the morning le.
i really should go rest and have my beauty sleep le.
(:
enjoy sleeping everyone!

DARLING, TODAY IS OUR 99th DAYS TOGETHER!

as euu had said, 99 means 长长久久.

HEARTS EUU!

LOVE LOVE!

丁噹-可以不可以 (完整版MV)

2007-07-21T10:56:00.000+08:00

its a wonderful saturday!

after 4days of work, i finally get my very first rest day. (:

oh ya,

i actually working at SONY now.

hees* just started work on tuesday.

so far so good. everything is fine. quiet working environment with friendly people around.

i dun understand logistic at all.

but im sure im able to learn and pick up everything soon.

kambatei o~ =D

wana blog to share a nice video with everyone.

hees*

丁噹-可以不可以 (完整版MV).

to me quite nice and i like to song too.

but but.. the ending is damn lame can.

hais.

it can end in a better way i guess.

hahaha*

anyway, hope euu people enjoy the video.

可以不可以

词:五月天-阿信

曲:赵之璧

可不可以让我回到

突然长大那一天

那一刻他的吻

改变我的世界

可不可以这个夏天

这些故事能永远

球场边界外线

我们已越走越远

我可以划一个圈

把自己关在里面

把回忆挡在外面

却不能停止想念

在我的天空蔓延

他有的善良和善变

我可以划一个圈

当作是完美句点

还他自由的蓝天

却不能停止想念

一幕幕甜美画面

如果放弃了这一切

那么在我身体里的灵魂是谁

可不可以让我练习

心碎时候有笑脸

等着他已走远

才能落下眼泪

可不可以让我消失在

地平线这瞬间

哭过了冷却了

起风了却不能飞

所以我可以一直拥抱心碎

i do have this song.

if euu wan can ask from me.

but mine is not sang by 丁噹.

instead its sing by 卓文萱.

the lyrics is meaningful.

okays.

thats all fer now.

dear,thanksferEVERYTHING! (:

Lesson One: Priorities in Life

2007-07-16T16:09:00.000+08:00

Rain's Teaching Class; Lesson One

haahs* today gonna give everyone a meaningful lesson in life.

wanna share this story;

my very FIRST lesson: Priorities in Life! (The Mayonnaise Jar and 2 cups of Coffee)

When things in your life seems almost too much to handle;

when 24hours in a day are not enough;

remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee theory..

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in font of him.

When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full.

They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.

He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open area between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full.

They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.

He asked once more if the jar was full.

The student responded with an unanimous "yes".

The professo then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectibely filling the empty space between the sand.

The student laughed.

"Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided,

"I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life."

The golf balls are the IMPORTANT things:

- your family,

- your children,

- your health,

- your friends and

- your favourite passions.

and if everything else was lost and only they remained;

your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the OTHER things that matter, like:

- your job,

- your house and

- your car.

The sand is EVERYTHING ELSE..

meaning, the small and not important stuff.

"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued.

"there is no room for pebbles or the golf balls."

The same goes for LIFE.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,

you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness."

Play with your children.

Take time to do medical checkups.

Take your spouse out to dinner.

Play another 18.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

Take care of the golf balls first

-- the things that really matters to you --

Set your priorities.

"The rest is just sand."

One of the student raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.

"I'm glad that you asked."

"It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem;

there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

hope everyone likes the story i had share with euu.

ENJOY!

firehouse - i live my life for you

2007-07-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

MONDAY! (:

darling slept over at my place last night. hees*

me too went to bed earlier then wad i normally do.

have to tune my body-clock back soon.

seeing those eyebags and dark circles, really IRRITATES me!

my complexion had gone so BAD too. ARRRGH!!!!!

oh gosh,

im whining again.

okays larhs

actually i blog just to blog a song.

FIREHOUSE - I LIVE MY LIFE FOR YOU

on my bro's bdae,

some of them actually sang this song while khai is playing the guitar.

and jess told me she gonna learn how to play the cord and ya,

she gonna play it fer her dar on their 3rd year anniversary.

how sweet of her right?

now im ib lurve with this song.

looking at the lyrics,

~~i also got the urge to learn to play the cord fer this song then record and ya..~~

~~do a very own cd then give it to him fer pressie.~~

wahhahah*

oh gosh!

he will come to see my blog de.

shucks!

>.<

bleah! =pPp

darling still playing PSP larhs.

guys really can get so into their game and forget about how tired they are and they can give up their sleeps just to chiong finish the game.

hais.

he and his need fer speed carbon.

boooo!

okays,

enuff of my talking. i shall share the song with euu guys.

ENJOY!

You know you're everything to me

And I could never see the two of us apart

And you know I give myself to you

And no matter what you do I promise you my heart

I've build my world around you and I want you to know

I need you like I've never needed anyone before

CHORUS

I live my life for you

I want to be by your side in everything that you do

And if there is only one thing you can believe is true

I live my life for you

I dedicate my life to you

You know that I would die for you

But our love would last forever

And I will always be with you

And there is nothing we can't do

As long as we're together

I just can't live my life without you and I want you to know

I need you like I've never needed anyone before

CHORUS REPEAT

I've built my world around you and I want you to know

I need you like I've never needed anyone before

CHORUS REPEAT

Woh yeah I live my life for you

*.dar,iwanalivemylifejustfereuu! =]

saddist. )':

2007-07-08T19:16:00.000+08:00

i hate to be alone.
i dunwan to be alone.
i cant be alone.
but..
what to do, im always alone..
i used to lurve weekend so much but now, i just HATE it so much!
soon im gonna be a loner lyk my elder bro liao. =/
-sigh-
please please, hope i get the job tml. if not i really going crazy le. staying home is a torture to me. having nothing to do and letting my mind goes wild is a cruel torture. i cant take it anymore!
):

its a wonderful sunday but im home.
noone ask me out; neither do i have friends to go out with me.
dar went JB with his family. (hope euu enjoy yerself. at least on yer off day, euu are spending time with yer family. like what euu told me, euu hope to bring yer mummy out often.)
i think i miss out alot of beautiful things in my life. i think i really do..
used to have tight schedules fer the whole week. having outing and full of activities. but now, im so damn free!
what is happening to me? my life is just lyk taking a roller-coaster ride.
what on earth is happening?

just finish bathing. (:
feel so fresh now. hees.
finally got show to watch larhs. whole afternoon, channel 8 was like playing those old shows.
wahahaha* too bad i got no SCV, if not i can whole day stay home watch show i also wont complain le.
hees.
sometimes really hate my kor kor larhs.
like deaf lor. on music must on til the loudest. then i on my tv he must compete the volume with me.
arrgh!
hais..

suddenly dunno what to blog sia.
waiting fer dar to come over my place.
okays larh, i shall blog later when im bored.
*wink*
((:

DHT - Listen To Your Heart (Slow)

2007-07-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

late at night.

hmmm.. im here to blog another nice song.

introduce by xiinhuee! (: *thumbs up* its real nice can.

kinda emo after dinner with dar's family due to my dad's call.

=/ forget it, dun talk about it le bah.

came home by myself.

(im just so pampered larhs. miss my dar fetching me. *cheekysmile)

watched incredible tales by myself too. so scary can.

haahs* im just so timid. wana watch yet i will always frighten myself.

anyway, shall let euu guys enjoy the song below.

Title: Listen To Your Heart (Slow)

Sang By: DHT

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.

I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.

You've built a love but that love falls apart.

Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.

Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.

I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,

but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.

The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.

They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,

the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

And there are voices that want to be heard.

So much to mention but you can't find the words.

The scent of magic,

the beauty that's been when love was wilder than the wind.

Wait For You!

2007-07-05T15:06:00.000+08:00

im here to introduce nice song again le.

this time, found this song in anne's blog. hence i went to download and upload it on my imeem.

girl, euu always have nice songs larhs.

hees*

must share more with me okays?

Title: Wait For You

Artist: Elliot Yamin

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know; so now I’m all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep runnin’ down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away
(When) Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me?
You’re still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying

Baby why can’t we just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you
I’ll be waiting …

i just came back from Raffles Place larhs.
went there to pass Cassandra her jacket then met up with Dre to have our lunch.
a bit expensive lunch we should say.
but what to do.. at that kinda foodcourt. -sigh-
girl, next time we go Golden Shoe Complex to have our cheap and yummy lunch okays?
hees*
bought 3 chocos at Watson.
2 is Hershey Bar. one is Dark Chocolate, the other is Cookies & Chocolate. that Watson din sell Cookies & Cream. then i also bought a small version of Apollo Choco. its strawberry on top and choco below. i love the latter. =] *yums*
okays.
i should chaoz fer awhile le.
miss-ed* my afternoon drama liao.
wahaha*
shall blog again.
(:

6 weird thingy game. =/

2007-07-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

was at my dar's place since last night.

sleep till noon time den wakey.

(: SHIOK!

his place is damn peaceful when it suppose to be. noone to disturb. no unwanted noises. *thumbs up*

im a light-sleeper, hence any soft noise or light movement can wake me up le.

=// not gud larhs. seldom i can sleep soundly throughout the night.

thanks to the quietness and peaceful at yer place dear.

okays, i have to cont that silly game bertina has invented or introduce.

saw xinhui's blog. thought what happen hence when to take a look.

who knows, im asked to do the following :-

Each player of the game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged needs to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you'll need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

okays. i have to write 6 weird thingys about me. then tag at 6 diff peeps blog to ask them do the following. sorry pals who kana my tag. wahahaha* =D

1) i lurve to watch my dar sleeps. (: (hope it do sounds weird to euu guys. hees*)

2) i can finish one whole tub of ice-cream when im feeling down.

3) im self-obsess with myself and lurve to be treated as a princess. *wink*

4) im afraid of hot weather and neither can i stand cold places. wahaha*

5) i cant be alone, but i can shop alone.

6) i lurve to watch horror muvees yet im afraid of them.

hmmm. hope the above do some weird to euu peeps.

okays.

who shall be the 6 to tio this silly game?

they are..

1) Anne

2) Dre

3) JJ

4) Miki (my lil bro)

5) Rebecca

6) YH

SORRY! girlies & my dear bros, pls do as follow larhs. its a bit lame but fun larhs.

hees*

((:

channel 5 is showing Exocist : The Begining.

should i watch it? haahs* i scare i will have nightmare.

hmmm. think i give up ba.

darl will nag at me fer being stupid to watch horror mvuee and making myself so frighten to go bed.

okays, gotta chaos le.

keep coughing.

-sigh-

tootpid weather is making everyone so sick.

*.baby,igotsomuchtotelleuu.somuchtoshare.but..wedunseemstohavethetime.

iwish-ed*euucantake5minstolistentome.euuknowireallyyearntohaveachatwitheuu. ):

Whats Your Drean Engagement Ring?

2007-07-03T13:03:00.000+08:00

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Round Diamond!

A round diamond is classic and timeless, just like your styleYour diamond will always look with the times - and goes with everythingOf all diamonds, round diamonds show the most sparkleThey are often chosen by sweet, dependable women who make marriage their #1 priority.

What's" Your Dream Engagement Ring?

haahs*

saw this link on xinhui's blog hence i also go took the test and see whats is my dream engagement ring.

result, to me still hai hao larhs.

not really accurate.

cos.. i wana customise my own wedding bands. (:

wahahaha*

my tooth is aching damn bad.

should i see a dentist? or should i just bear with the pain and let that tootpid wisdom tooth grow out?

hmmm. does widsom tooth gives euu the widsom euu want?

then why must it be called "widsom tooth"?

not only the left side of my mouth is pain. i'm having sore throat and cough.

how long must i bear with the pain?

what should i get fer my lil' bro's 18th birthday?

any recommendation?

not forgetting xinhui's birthday too.

both of them falls on the nicest date on earth la. 070707!

sure make a memorable 18th birthday to them de.

that day is also live on earth day, do support the campaign by wearing GREEN.

green is a nice colour so just wear it to show that euu care.

hmmm.

i dunno what to blog le.

shall blog it later again ba.

]*[ dar,ijustlurvethewayeuuhugmeandsayeuumiss-ed*me. (:

breaking down.

2007-07-01T13:48:00.000+08:00

its a sunday!
haahs* to me no difference.
just another day at home ba.
down with sorethroat. think its my stupid widsom tooth giving me problem.
think fever coming soon. but who cares?
just let myself fall sick and ya. have a gud rest then.
-sigh-

1st July.
GST increased to 7%.
i cant sleep this morning and i was like counting the differences.
its really ALOT when euu see it in a long-term thingy.
GSS has been going on fer like a month le, but i have yet to get anythg.
NOT A SINGLE THING! ):
-sigh sigh sigh-
i miss-ed* shopping.
i miss-ed* singing k.
i miss-ed* muvee-ing.
i have so much miss-ed* stuff.
i just miss-ed* those sundays with euu. exploring around, going JB and just slacking with euu.
sometimes i do think im getting more and more demanding le.
with yer heavy work load. with yer unfix working hours. with euu getting so tired after work everyday, i start to be miss-ed* those days we just nua together.
mebe im just so superglued to euu le bah. think euu are suffocating le.. mebe i should really give euu some time to be alone ba.
):

recently im just so emo.
i dun understand myself le.
i hate myself for behaving this way.
i hate pretending to be alright.
arrrgh!
i need a shoulder to cry on.
really.
i just wanna someone to be there fer me to lean on.
gekpeng & xinhui, i really wana be strong and stay strong.
but i really dunno how le.
sorry.

fuck!
why am i crying.
nabei.. i really hate it.
think i should stop bloggin le.
off to do my salary at aranda then meet xinhue le.
its going to rain le...

ijustwannaspendmoretimewitheuu. ):

ihateeuu!

2007-06-29T13:35:00.000+08:00

very long never blog le.
hasnt been good.
life is kinda difficult and turning upside down ba.
):
what to do, thats life.
i wish-ed* fer the better but i dun seems to get it ba.
whenever i blog, i always tend to blog it with a heavy heart ;puzzled feelings ;emo.
i just dunno why im sucha lousy girl who cry so easily. tears flow like a open water tap.
-sigh-
mebe im just so sensitive le bah.
HELP!
i hate to be alone. lonliness is so hard to conquer. i wont be able to withstand it alone.
sometimes really wonder how many true friends i have..
why i dun seems to get support when i needed one?

darling's birthday its over. think it isnt a memorable one ba. i just mess up everythg ba.
-SORRY! other than apologising i really dunno how le. just hope euu like the pressie and the little surprise i had given euu.-

3rd month anniversary coming le. 2more weeks.
afterwhich will be my 20th birthday.
no plans. its just another normal weekday.
so fast. im turning 20 le.
haahs*
getting older le. i still haven achieve anythg.
): saddist!

i just wanna be happy.
just wanna be happy.
why is it so hard to have a happy family?
why do i have to face so many problems at home.
just so envy when i see others having a wonderful family.
-sigh-
tong ren bu tong ming.

intro euu peeps 2 new songs.
1) Zhang Dong Liang - Xiao Wu Gui
2) Zhou Hui - Zui Ai
both are nice songs!
really. xiao wu gui has a very cute mv. watch le just feel so sweet larhs. whereas zui ai i listen le will cry. haahs* below are the mvs. hope euu peeps enjoy.
(:

okays.
enjoy. ((:
gotta go prepare le. meeting gekpeng at causeway.
shall blog again.
enuff of my ranting and emo le.

*.euuaretheonewhocontrolmyemotion.

New Song! (:

2007-06-19T02:47:00.000+08:00

yuppie! i updates my blog song again.
hees*
(:
this time, i have changed to Cry On My Shoulder by Superstars.
thou its an old song, but i just lurve it so much.
meaningful song i guess. look at the lyrics, euu will feel how i feel when im listening to this song.
hope everyone likes it like i do.
wahahaha*

purrrr~!
i'm still awake!
gosh. i gotta wakey at 6, latest 6.15 later larhx.
meeting xinhui at her blk to help her with those camp stuff.
yups, band camp is tml.
not gonna stay overnight, cos somehow dun feel like it and i dun feel well too.
dunno why i feel so sick, and my gum is really hurting me.
):

went to work today.
kinda blur, or should i say im just so blur lyk sotong?
took wrong bus to work!
till now i cant figure out why i can see 53 as 89.
i saw 89 thats why i board the bus.
only realise its wrong when it din go the route that bus89 goes.
reach workplace late.
sigh~
mebe its because i din eat anythg at all bah.
=x

going fer an interview later in the afternoon.
got this club member, whom i never met before actually tell my supervisor to let me serve him larhx.
so ya, went out to the bar to make the beer he wanted.
have a chat with him and he started asking me about getting full-time job and stuff.
so yups. he asked me down fer an interview.
dunno, the job sound interesting and he sound as thou he going to hire me straight away.
haahs*
lady-luck is on my side i guess.
(:
thanks!

i cant find my previous resume and cv.
have to redo everythg all over again!
but..
i haven started doing in.
think i go nap awhile then wake up do before i leave fer the camp.
hees*
im a last min girl.

had a bad dream last night about darling.
told him about it and he just keep on laughing and say im silly.
): humpf*
din get to meet him today.
and ya, we both dun sound gud either.
mebe both of us are tired bah.
hope tml will be a better day!
(:
sorry if i had made euu angry,
euu know im just so stubborn and demanding at times.
dun take it to heart ya.
i dun meant anythg de.
as euu know,
i lurve euu loads!
hearts euu.
muacks*

okays larhx.
think i need to go nap le.
nights.
enjoy the songs in my blog and please remember to tag before euu leave.
(:

*.darling,6daystoyerBIRTHDAY!

SHOP! SHOP! SHOP!

2007-06-16T01:11:00.000+08:00

Shopping Spree! but.. NOT for ME! ):

so sad right? a shopping spree with xinhue but its not fer myself. its fer HIM! yesh, no other than my belurve darling larhx. shop fer his 21st birthday pressie at Queensway Shopping.

THANKS girl fer accompanying me go there on a rainy day. On our way out was already rainning hence her mummy actually gave us an umbrella each. but. we din want it. cos we have this tootpid concept that holding on to an umbrealla its beri AUNTY! haahs* =x anyway, walk out to take cab. yups, we cab to queensway. (: hees*

reach there, start to hunt fer pressie le. bought a few mummums to eat also. we both have itchy mouths. =D

i cant say what i bought from there as i know dear, euu will read my blog de. wahahaha*

anyway, din shop fer myself cos i never really go notice whats in there fer girlies. sob* my mind is all guy's stuff!

wana go back JP from there. but we are actually lost! hence called up my lifeline fer help. know what my lifeline said to me? "aiya, take a cab back larhx, i'll pay euu." yupps, we actually earn a cab back to JP this way. muacks* dear, i know euu lurve me de. ((:

went popular, bought some stuff. erm. cant say what isit fer again. ): aiyo. i wana say out lei. but hais. shall only reveal after this sunday bah. if not it wont be a surprise anymore. hees* meet up with darl there. and yupps, he fetch me and meimei back home.

oh yah, i bought something frm a pushcart also. its super-duper damn cute and sweet! =D

i really wonder if darl will cry after seeing all those pressies larhx.

had fun shopping with euu girl, thanks fer accompanying me. and ya, i will need to trouble euu to help me to do that "Major Project" this few days. so dun mind me to go bother euu hor? wahaha*

muacks* i lurve euu too girl.

okays larhs.

i shall end here.

having back toothache. i think this time my widsom tooth is really growing!

/. dear,7daystoyer21stbirthdayle. (:

tell me its isnt so.

2007-06-12T22:57:00.000+08:00

i hate the feeling im having now.
i hate it when i just feel so lost and empty.
i wana stop my mind from running wild.
i wana stop my tears from flowing down.
why? why do euu have to let me know euu actually told a lie?

mebe i shouldnt look thru yer phone.
mebe i shouldnt be so attentive and spot the "mistake".
im just feeling so shit now.
i wish-ed* i din spot anythg.
there's no way im gonna bluff myself thru and pretend nothg has happened.

im jealous. im sad. im disappointed.
euu actually told a lie about that phone call.
please tell me its isnt so.
please tell me im wrong, im over-sensitive.
please..

oh gosh!
im emo.
):
tears keep flowing down.
shall end here.
im just here to rant out my thoughts. just need somewhere to bottle my feelings.
my heart is no longer spacious to fill my woes.
hais..

doeuuknoweuubrokemyheart?

Gareth Gates - Say It Isn't So

2007-06-12T15:07:00.000+08:00

Gareth Gates - Say It Isn't So

Heading for tomorrow I wave goodbye to yesterday
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow
How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Tempt to find but at least we've tried
We're still alive with hopes this time
As they closed the door behind you
We're so alone and time stands still
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
as I wish I'd never found you
Wohoh
How can I be smiling when you go
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Miles, miles to go
Before I can sail
Before I can nail my love for you to sleep
Oh darling
I get miles, miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear me laugh again

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

heard this song from someone's friendster.
den search my wmp den realise i actually got this song.
looking at the lyrics while listening to this song, really find this song a very nice song.
know its an old song but still wana post to share this song with euu peeps.
enjoy!
(:

blanks..

2007-06-04T22:58:00.000+08:00

no topic.
blanks.
lost.
i wish i can know myself well.
):
-sigh-
jobless fer the 2nd week le. hasnt been serious about job hunting.
REASONS: nvr think that i will get out of job, hence i din actually go and plan the next step in my life. how i wish-ed* i had plan the other route well rather then standing here fer so long when thing goes wrong.
been thinking im so useless lor.
everyone's working and im home sleeping.
lyk wat von said, take it as a short break and move on when i've enough rest.
THANKS everyone who is there fer me when im down and keeping a lookout fer me too.
-hugs & lurve-

a bit contradicting now.
should i or should i not?
i lurve my previous work place. the people i work with.
but.
the pay they gonna pay me is kinda low.
hubby knows i lurve the job alot. haahs* but he also thinks that the amount i get back after CPF is not enough fer me to use. even my daddy said that too.
)):
how?
if i work i wont be able to meet my darl le.
-sigh-

work i will get income. dun work i will get $0.
work i wont get to see darl so often or actually we wont get to see each other at all. obviously dun work i can see him larhx.
if work my parents wont nag at me. dun work i get naggings everyday!

how how how?

someone pls enlighten me. im just so lost now. ):

Lovynn Kan - Zui Hou Yi Ci

2007-05-31T14:48:00.000+08:00

Proudly Presents : Lovynn Kan - Zui Hou Yi Ci

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前我想对你
说我爱你在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇不能再陪你
但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

先走了去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出
等不到天亮
所有回忆没去却并不容易
生死由天决定不要太伤心

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇不能再陪你
但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我永远爱你

get to hear this song from someone's friendster.
then went into imeem, get to see the song lyrics.
but said to say, i dun know who is she.
only knows that she is 19 and a singaporean.

and heard from my bro, she wrote this song for her dead bf whom had died in a car accident.

): so shocking.
anyway, would like to share this song with euu guys cos i really find this song NICE!
hope yer enjoy and do comment ya.
((:

Would You Be There

2007-05-28T23:20:00.000+08:00

Would You Be There?

Redwan Ali

Mars & Venus ending theme

If I were blue would you be there for me

And whisper in my ear that's okay

Would you stand by me let me hold you tight

And say you love me one more time

If I feel good would you slow dance with me

And touch my lips with tender loving care

Would you die for me would you run with me

And never look back

Would you be there to love to be with me

Would you swear that your love is always true

Would you say that you'll always be the one

To take my breath away

Would you be there to love to be with me

Would you swear that your love is always true

Would you say that you'll always be the one

To take my breath away

Would you be there

If I'm away would you still think of me

And wish that you could hold me now (Hold me now)

Would you die for me would you run with me

All the way

Would you be there to love to be with me

Would you swear that your love is always true

Would you say that you'll always be the one

To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight (Save my soul tonight)

Would you swear that your love is always true

Would you say that you'll always be there

To kiss my pain away

Would you be there to love to be with me

Would you swear that your love is always true

Would you say that you'll always be the one

To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight (Save my soul tonight)

Would you swear that your love is always true

Would you say that you'll always be there

To kiss my pain away

Would you be there

For me

i just lurve this song so much after watching Mars & Venus.

my korkor's fren ish so nice to send us this song after knowing we are searching for it high and low.

at first i only have half of the song, but now i have the full song!

yuppies!!!

~~dont know why i cant upload the song lei.~~

wahahaha*

~~mebe i very long never blog le so a bit clumsy using blogger.~~

~~shall figure it out tml and i will post the song above the song lyrics ya.~~

~~right now enjoy the lyrics first ba.~~

as said, i have upload the song.

ENJOY!

lurve the lyrics, the vocal the whole song!

=DD

>darling,iknoweuuwouldbetherefermede! (: -hugs

Thanks fer the Surprise!

2007-05-27T22:09:00.000+08:00

THANKS fer the SURPRISE!

baby, THANKS so MUCH to try to put a smile on my face.

but, its a bit over le. SO MUCH FOOD!

the big feast from Pizza Hut and KFC can fill 4 stomachs larhx. but the 2 of us actually finish MOST of the food. and we have to vomit them up cos we felt so FULL!

= ps: lets dun waste food anymore ya?

baby, to others it may be just a little action or small thingy. but to me, its really a surprise larhx.

at first thought euu cooking wat fer my late lunch. end up i saw so much food on yer lorry larhx. (:

really had a great late lunch with euu today.

*muahs*

baby, so sad can.. euu actually go and changed yer handy. ):

now our handy different le..

first euu drop my name and the little tortise.. now euu change handy.

*humpf*

boo~!BOO!boo~!

anyway, its okays larhx. its just the sudden emo kicking a side of my mind.

now im alright le. (:

still yer silly little girl.

but dear, can dun jump to conclusion without asking me or letting me to explain things? she's a girl and not a guy. and i din talk to guys larhx. got euu le still need other guys fer what? still remember what i told euu that day? i hope euu do lorhx. guys who are close to me, i already shown it to euu le. pls rest assure ya.

yer baby only miss-ed* her girlies! (:

raining day.

nice weather to zZzZ..

yupps. right now, my hubby is sleeping like a pig. snoring away! =D

whahaha*

okays larhx.

think i end here le.

nthg much to blog also.

shall upload more photos soon!

chaoz~!

*>caneuuhavealittlemoretrust&faithinme?

The Great Singapore Sales

2007-05-27T12:48:00.000+08:00

I NEED RETAIL THERAPY!

the Great Singapore Sales 2007 is here.

=D *wee*

i really need retail therapy!!!

mebe i need a sugar-daddy too? haahs* (hubby,im just kidding.)

its from 22May - 22July.

i wana go fer a shopping-spree SOON!

((:

i got so many things i wish to get.

bags, accessories, tops, heels & etc.

-yums-

talk about all this i really HAPPY larhx.

think i will be damn broke after this.

*wahahaha*

girls,

wana go fer shopping-spree, pls ring me up ya?

besides GSS, i wana catch some muvees too.

1) Pirates of the Caribbean (At Worlds End)

2) Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (Coming Soon)

3) Surf's Up (Coming Soon)

4) Transformers (Coming Soon)

haahs*

i think these are the few muvees i wana catch bah.

cos like no much muvees recently lei.

if anyone got any recomm pls let me know ya.

i miss band!

i really miss the every sat morning thingy.

not only that, i miss my only chance to meet up with my fellow dears.

miss them so much lorhx.

hope they can resume the band practise soon!

i cried last night.

cried real bad.

tried to write down my feelings..

but i failed to do so.

instead i wasted a lot of papers.

cant sleep at all.

due to my gastric and a very bad headache.

telling myself to be strong is the only thing i can do bah.

everything just seems to come against me.

*sigh*

i hate it so much when euu judge me that way.

i loathe when euu think im unreasonable and demanding.

im hurt when euu dun seems to notice my presence.

i cried when i cant bottle up any more woes.

im a water-tap, hence never make me cry. =

asking myself to be understanding, and ya.. im trying real hard.

i dunwan empty promises or words that are said fer the seek of saying.

i know both of us are trying really hard to make things work out.

like euu say, dun quarrel because of yer work.

but.. please dun have the mindset that i wana euu to quit or whatsoever.

if i really not happy with euu holding up this job, i will have object long ago.

do euu know how much it hurts to see euu so tired.

all i yearn fer is a hug frm euu. do euu know those little actions can really make my day?

im a girl who is easily contented.

someone who dun need gifts or pressies.

just those sweet little actions can actually fill my heart.

yups.

waiting fer euu to knock off.

hmmm.

hope today will be a HAPPY SUNDAY!

/*. euuknowigotsomuchtosay.butidunseemstobeabletoputtheminwords.

ijustmisseuuso!

hubby,euuknowilurveeuudeepdeepde. (:

Photos!

2007-05-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

Photo Album Time!

Its time to upload photos! (: took quite a lot of photos. always say wana upload yet either i forget or i really lazy to do so. = since i cant sleep now, might as well upload some photos here. hees* just finish editing my blog. lurve the song. i added lyrics too. HOW CAN I NOT LOVE YOU.

Our 1st K-box @ CCK.

Sang from 12mn to 3am.

Just the TWO of US!

*muahs* yups, he kissed me!

i kissed him back in return. haahs*

smile* ((:

thats HIM singing!

no much picts taken cos only two of us mah. (: im getting sleepy le. time to go bed liao. and this stupid blog align is really driving me crazy! =S

bye peeps.

New Blogskin! =D

2007-05-25T13:20:00.000+08:00

CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN! (:

Yes! i've changed my blogskin.

this time is a personalised blogskin made by moi belurve XINHUE!!!

THANKS DEAR! *muahs*

the skin is just so ME. i really really lurve it ALOT!

lurve the rainbow background, lurve the 3 picts at the top and i lurve the song too!

thanks!!! =DD

i've got so much to update again.

recently jus became jobless. ):

long story, dunwana repeat again.

so peeps, if got any job intro MUST let me know okays?

wana upload picts here yet im just so lazy to do so larhx.

wahahaa*

thats me ya. a lazy bum!

i miss working, i miss schooling days, i miss my saturday band practise and i just miss my dear friends.

wana get back to my busy lifestyle again.

its a torture to put me at home with nothing much to do.

seeing other friends working while im slacking, sometimes really make me go into deeper thoughts.

-sigh-

is our honeymoon period over?

starts to get tiff, misunderstanding and blah blah blah..

i hope its not.

i wish-ed* and i hope our honeymoon period can be L-O-N-G-E-R!!!

((:

jealousy starts to fill part of my mind.

im trying my best not to jump into conclusion.

im trying my very best not to think of it.

but.. sometimes everything just seems to be so hard to achieve..

okays larhx.

shall blog again..

*./ baby,ineedreassurance.euuknowilurveeuudeepdeep.

sweetest moment! <3

2007-05-12T19:00:00.000+08:00

( "v" ) Sweetest Moments <3

People tend to enjoy the first few months of their newly relationship with their lurve ones. This period is called "HoneyMoon" period, where newly got-together couple are in their sweetest mode.

But..

How long does this honeymoon period gonna last?

I always wonder.. Will a couple forever in honeymoon mode, spending every single day sweetly and doing stuff together throughout the whole relationship?

Somehow in life, we dun get what we wished for.

Things tend to turn out the oppsite way from what you want.

Maintaining a relationship is a tedious and difficult task bah.

I wish-ed* i know and i will learn how to maintain and carry a relationship well bah.

So far, till now.. Me and Him are still in our honeymoon period. No quarrels yet. *touchwood* i dunwan to quarrel lah.

We do alot of things togetherly.

Hope we can stay this way as long as possible.. Cos im just so scare of going into the period where we will have disagreement, where quarrel will arise.

*praying hard*

30th April 2007

Very very very happy day! =DD

He came to fetch me and my parents to my 2nd Uncle place to visit my grandma. Then he went to have lunch with his parents.

And ya. He actually make a trip back to my uncle's house lah. Met my aunty and grandma.

Den he helped to carry that toopid big tv back to my place fer us.

Sorry dear, have to trouble euu. BUT.. that actually help euu lor. Cos daddy actually credited euu lor.. 1st time in my life my daddy ask my bf to come over to my place often la.

Euu the 1st lor. =D

Can see my parents like him alot la, especially my dad. Thanks dad fer accepting him. *muahs*

After i changed, both of us secretly went in JB to pump petrol and our shopping-spree.

bought the black-white pig de neck cushion fer his car. *nice nice*

den we had our dinner at one of the cafe there.

-yums yums-

din spend much time there as we scare there is jam or what so we left around 7plus in the evening.

THANKS hubby, its a great weekend shopping-spree at JB. *hugs*

Its been long since i last update. And whenever i wana update, i end up saving those things i wrote as darft and i actually forget to update again!

haahs*

thats me, just so busy with work and spending sufficient time with him.

dunno why just got so sleepy and tired whenever i go to work.

mebe, ya.. i just not use to work bah.

i just miss-ed* school time so much.

when euu are studying, euu just wish-ed* to go out to the work society. but once euu are out in the work society, euu just wish-ed* euu are a student still.

thats life.

went to cascadia showflat located at bukit timah yesterday.

erm.. not up to my expectation. the interior deco and funishing are all very nice but too bad, the size fer the bedroom are just too small le.

never intend to stay in a condo cos nowadays, condo just appear to be so much smaller than a normal HDB flat bah.

after work meet dearie at my place fer dinner.

den we went to UK Funfair at Woodlands.

only managed toplayed two games as i need to go to my colleague's place fer MJ session.

haahs*

we played a 360degree thingy which i decided to name the game "NABEI" as i keep screaming througout the ride and i was like keep saying "nabei lah", cos its so freaking scary can.

then a turn-turn ride which its so boring. but the ride actually trigger me to PUKE!

ya, i puked lah.

=//

met up the rest at carol's place fer MJ til 4am.

lost quite a bit lah. 16bucks..

he came to fetch me and send felicia and alyssa back home.

den we went geylang fer out YOU TIAO!

-yums yums-

ordered alot lah!

just the 2 of us, we ordered to soya bean, dou hua, guo tie, xiao long bao, you tiao and a special you tiao bin.

whahaha*

eat till so FULL!!!

back to his home and we sleep til nearly 5pm.

-yawn yawn-

haahs*

and now im blogging while his bathing cos we gonna go out later le.

a little shopping-spree again.

-yuppies-

okays lah.

think i should end here le.

will TRY to update more often if not this blog gonna rot le.

*wink*

*/ spendingeachdaywitheuuisalliwishandyearnfer.

UPDATE!

2007-04-26T20:49:00.000+08:00

Its Time Fer Updat-ion!

its has been SOoooo L-O-N-G since i last blog.

glad that some of my frequent vistors still hanging around my blog.

THANKS for making my blog ALIVE with yer frequent tags.

=DD

sorry that i've been so busy with work and ya, im down with my old illness again.

okays, im back here to updates again le.

*evil smile*

so.. what have i been doing fer the past few weeks?

Missing-in-Action i guess.

handy kanna terminated due to my blurness again ;forget to pay handy bill.

resorting in using up the money in other stuff.

haahs*

so, right now.. i still haven re-connect my line.

sorry to those that has been searching fer me.

hope i din make euu guys worry.

think i changing my handy plan and change number bah.

so, stay tune fer my new number!

((:

sometime escaping from the use of handy is also a breakfree fer me bah.

hees*

yups, fer those who know and fer those who dunno.. im ATTACHED!

haahs*

=DD

wana know who is HIM, its fer euu to find out bah.

only my besties will get to see HIM i guess.

*cheeky smile*

so far, im really happy with him.

feel damm pamper! ((:

thanks dearie! *muahs*

though we just startedm but seems like we are together for quite a long time le.

he understands me ;he just seems to know every part of me well.

my facial expression change, he knows im in what kinda mood.

lil things he do really touches my heart.

i will cherish him!

damn tired!

dunno why everyday im tired.

kinda reluctant to go work.

saturday faster come.

i need and i wan my salary!

cant wait to go out this sat larhx.

another week is going to be over.

weekdays pass so slow ;weekend flys like plane..

when can we deserve MORE weekends?

haahs*

recently alot of new songs.

shall update my playlist soon.

hopefully i got the time to update my blog.

have to rush a proposal for the coming band camp in June.

gonna crack my coconut brain liao.

((:

need help~!

anyone got any interesting group activites/games or watsoever can share with me?

need some help lor.

pls pls help me if u ever in-charge of organising a camp ya.

greatly appreciated!

okays.

gotta go le.

meeting my precious.

*/ imnolongerthegirleuuguysknowinthepast. iwanachangeforthebetter! preciousilurveeuu. (: ILU.IMU

u no longer around.

2007-04-04T20:02:00.000+08:00

Euu No Longer Around

it has been sucha long time since i last blog.

was busy! real busy with work.

launches. launches and launches.

after launches, has to prepare for boss's MBO thingy.

im down.

sick.

yah.

hate it. especially when u're all alone.

till now i still miss. really really miss-ed*

into the 3rd week le.

gosh~!

he just keep running around my mind. [aren't yer leg numb and tired?] -____-"

-sigh-

took half day yest from work.

today took MC.

stomach virus?! haahs* first time hear of this.

but anyway, im not gonna take that tootpid white liquid which meant for the gastric de. cos from the look of it, i know its gonna taste yucky!

was at aranda chalet since monday night.

got myself heavily drunk that night.

hence i took half day off from work cos i got seriously hand-over!

i took MC today cos i OVERSLEPT!!!

*sssshhhhh*

tell noone about it.

but yah. im sick also la. so yups.

haahs*

chalet was fun!

get to know new frenz.

drunk isnt a gud experience.

but thanks to them, i gotta taste the feeling of drunk and vomitting!

last friday went clubbing with my 3 pretty babes + my kor and his 2 frenz.

HAD LOTSA FUN~!

whoo-hoo.

plus 1st time club at phuture lah.

haaha*

stupid right. FIRST time go phuture..

anway,

im still waiting for the picts.

will upload once i got them.

=DD

okays lah.

dun wish to carry on bloggin le.

im feelin emo again!

gosh.

i need to calm myself down le.

if not later cry like a babi again..

/*ireallymisseuualot! =x ihatelies. ihatethiskindatreatment. whencanistopgettinhurt? islurvingsomeonesodifficutl?

BASTARD! =S

2007-03-26T07:46:00.000+08:00

DIGUSTING RETARD! FUCKING BASTARD!!

im seeing RED!

ARRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!

do all shawns behaved the same?

wahahaha*

this shawn from WLNY, his a fucking retard can?

this is the 3rd time he PM me le.

lets see what he wrote..

" wanna have sex now? i pay $700 cash, blowjob $350 cash now so how? i can pay u full $700 cash b4 i strip u. all u gotta do is just spread ur legs wide and let me fuck u hard n fast till u n i cum! in the dark, off light, wan? i can lick ur pussy too. $700 cash. wan? "

report him to the webmaster before.

no use. no action. nothing done.

quite alot of the WLNY girls kana from him.

its irritating can.

im really boiling now.

how i wish i can give him a punch. a tight slap and ...

i din feel any better..

i cried myself to sleep last night.

i thought wake up i will be much more better.

but i din.

woke up with a painful headache. just like the kind which one will get after he/she drunk and hang-over.

right now as im writing, tears still rolled down like nobody's business.

i tried not to think. not to miss.

but..

i cant..

wonder if he's okay. hope he's coping well..

=//

its gonna pour soon.

BUT T.O.R is going SENTOSA!

PLEASE DUN START RAINING AT SENTOSA CAN..

let me enjoy my off day.

i wana tan.

i wana be happy.

-sigh-

i cant even make myself smile, how am i going to cheer myself up?

in the end.. its the end!

heaven really testing out my patient and my will power.

i know there are still more difficult setbacks in life for me to handle but..

im really tired of it. sick of it!

HELP~!

/*. baby, don't go.

end-ed*

2007-03-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

self-destruction!
has been activated since 2100hr 25 MARCH 2007.
Fuck!
i HATE it~!
knew it. i knew it..
things finally turned out the way i predicted.
BUT..
its not what i expected.
is something i dun wish for.
will things change after he cool down?
will we be like the same as the past?
damnit!
its driving me crazy!!!

cry; tears.
yah. i cried~!
how i wish there's someone right here.
i need a shoulder. i need a hug.
let me have a gud cry can?
i really drain and tired of everything.
arrrgh...

=S
='[
=/
what mood im in now?
status: unknown.
pending: MIA mission.

sorry pals.
if i really MIA, let me be okays.
i will be back..
i think i need time.
i dunno how long i need.
but ya.
hope i be the same girl as who i am before.

no one will understand how i feel now.
i wish i can express myself better.
but..
i think no point.
take care.
((:
dun wry for me.

PS: i always say i will MIA but i never did it successfully! =D

/* it hurts to know the truth. i wish-ed* yer answer will be the same as mine.

i miss him =X

2007-03-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

miss-ed*

the image of him started flashing back to my mind.

listening to the songs we used to sing and hum.

stepping on the ground in malls where we once left our footprints behind.

watching muvees at those threaters we use to watch our muvees..

-sigh-

i start to miss him again!

=//

i thought i long-ed* forget about him le.. but now i know i haven!

im being silly all the while.

thinking i can handle everything on my own.

wishing keeping myself busy with work and school stuff i will keep my mind from running away.

but.. whenever it comes to those quiet moment, especially at night, i will start to have flashback of the past.

that day i tear-ed because i thought of him.

i din cry-out-loud becos i dunwn to scare my fren.

i dunwn to reveal the weakest side of me.

ya.

i wish i can go for a brain-washing session.

how i wish the memory for that 2years can just be erased from my brain.

hais*

can i overcome it?

its been 4mths le.

his moving on well with his life.

but.. am i moving on too?

this path i chose it myself. obviously i have to carry on walking til i come to an end.

no matter the path is the right one or the wrong one, i do hope there is someone to support me thru.

my life did changed a little after we both went on seperate ways.

some part of my life seems so different without him around.

i have to get over it. i have to get use to being alone after 2years.

til now it seems so tough..

seeing other couples tog so sweet i do get envious.

i really really miss-ed*

but..

i wont want to go back or turn back times now.

everything will be so different; things wun be the same as before le.

and i doubt he will want too.

very long neber update le.

more than a week neber blog.

thanks to those pals who keep visiting my blog and tag.

((:

touch-ed*

was at Pavilion 11 showflat last week.

weekend gonna get burnt this week! =//

have to go down to The Trillium showflat. its LAUNCHING soon!

location: opp Great World; near to Zouk!

wahahaha*

imagine can go clubbing after work.

-wink-

getting along well with my 2 retards!

lurve them to bits.

they are 2 IO students from SP.

thou onli know them for 1mth but we seems to click!

hees*

xuemin and alex, euu girls brighten up my day in office!

its GREAT knowing euu 2!!!

friends come and goes.

i appreciate and treasure those who respect and treasure me.

but..

what to do with those that dun even there to let others know we are friends?

whats wrong being a friend of yers? i mean why must we behave so secretive? why so scare ppl find out?

hahas*

okays. its kinda complicated. i also dunno how to say about the stupid friendship of ours.

i craving for mango-pudding!

TOOTPID KENJI~!

his making me crazy.

trying to tempt me with his mango puddin!

so angry!!! =S

-humpf-

okays.

off to chat with my Queen of RETARD-ED!

=DD

will blog again.

hees.

nights peeps!

/* sweetz; darlings; i miss-ed* my dearest shawn!

Which Tree You Belongs To?

2007-03-12T18:06:00.000+08:00

Which Tree You Belongs To?

12.23-01.01]]苹果树│01.02-01.11]]枞　树│01.12-01.24]]榆　树 01.25-02.03]]柏　树│02.04-02.08]]白杨树│02.09-20.18]]杉　树│ 02.19-02.28]]松　树│03.01-03.10]]柳　树│03.11- 03.20]]椴　树│ 03.21-03.21]]橡　树│03.22-03.31]]榛子树│04.01-04.10]]花楸树│ 04.11-04.20]]枫　树│04.21-04.30]]胡桃树│05.01-05.14]]白杨树│ 05.15-05.24]]栗　树│05.25-06.03]]白蜡树│06.04-06.13]]角　树│ 06.14-06.23]]无花树│06.24-06.24]]桦　树│06.25- 07.04]]苹果树│ 07.05-07.14]]枞　树│07.15-07.25]]榆　树│07.26-08.04]]柏　树│ 08.05-08.13]]白杨树│08.14-08.23]]杉　树│08.24-09.02]]松　树│ 09.03-09.12]]柳　树│09.13-09.22]]椴　树│09.23-09.23]]橄榄树│ 09.24-10.03]]榛子树│10.04-10.13]]花楸树│10.14- 10.23]]枫　树│ 10.24-11.11]]胡桃树│11.12-11.21]]栗　树│11.22-12.01]]白蜡树│ 12.02-12.11]]角　树│12.12-12.21]]无花树│12.22-12.22]]榉　树│

答案如下：

苹果树(爱情型)
身材纤细，魅力无穷，富感染力，吸引力强，无忧无虑，想象力丰富，给人以愉悦的感觉。略显浮躁，喜爱冒险，敏感，时常陷入爱情，是忠实温柔的情人，喜欢爱人和被爱的感觉，懂得生活，享受今朝。

白蜡树(进取型)
有着无与伦比的吸引力，活泼冲动，要求多多，不在意别人的批评，有野心，聪明能干，喜欢与命运抗争，容易以自我为中心，是可以完全依靠，值得信赖的人，是可靠和谨慎的情人，有时候理智多过感情，但是对伴侣很重视。

榉树(创造型)
品位不凡，在意自己的形象，唯物主义者，生活和事业井井有条，是出色的领导，不会冒不必要的险，理智，是绝佳的终身伴侣，热衷于身材的保持（瘦身，运动等）。

桦树(灵感型)
活泼，有吸引力，文雅，友好，不做作，谦逊，不喜过分之举，痛恨庸俗，享受生活本来的自然恬静，不冲动，富有想象力，有些许野心，善于营造安静怡人的氛围。

杉树(自信型)
相貌平平，适应环境的能力强，喜奢侈，身体健康，大方，不害羞，容易看不起他人，过于自信，有决断力，性格浮躁，喜欢引人注目，有才干，刻苦，乐观，果断；等待一生中的真爱的到来。

栗子树(诚实型)
相貌出色，不喜引人注目，有良好的正义感，活泼风趣，天生的外交家可以作到上司的位子。但是在群体中常因不自信和敏感而轻易动怒，有时感到不被人理解。一生中只爱一次，不会轻易找到自己的伴侣。

柏树(忠诚型)
强壮，适应能力强，认命，乐观知足，渴望金钱和他人的承认，不喜孤独，是热情的伴侣，不易满足，但仍然可靠。任性，性情急噪，好追究，粗心。

榆树(贵族型)
体形优美，穿着有品位，谦逊，高贵，要求高，不原谅他人的过错。天性快乐，喜欢处于领导地位而不是跟从，是诚实可信的伴侣，喜欢为他人出谋划策，慷慨大方，富幽默感，做事切合实际。

无花果树(敏感型)
非常强壮，独立，有些以自我意愿为中心，不喜矛盾与争论，热爱生活，热爱家庭，孩子和动物，富幽默感，喜欢闲适懒散，有实际能力和才智。

枞树(神秘型)
品位不凡，威严，略显高深，喜爱一切美丽的事物，易怒，固执，有些利己，但关心接近他的人。谦逊，但非常有野心，有才能，刻苦，是不甚令人满意的伴侣，朋友众多，树敌也多，是可以信赖的人。

榛树(特别型)
有魅力，没有过高的要求，非常理解他人，知道如何给人以深刻印象，为了社会的事业积极的贡献自己的力量。判断力准确，受人欢迎，易怒，性格有时反复无常，仍然是诚实宽容的情人。

角树(品位绝佳型)
形象出色，有酷酷的外表，在意自己的外表和条件，品位出众，不自私自利，懂得为自己安排舒适的生活，有理有序，期待从感情丰富的伴侣那里得到关爱和认同，梦想得到不同寻常的情人，对情感很挑剔，对大多数人不信任，对自己的决定总是没有把握，但有责任心。

椴树(疑虑型)
平静地接受生活的给予，不喜斗争，不喜压力和过劳，不喜欢懒散和无所事事，性格温和宽厚，肯为朋友作出牺牲，有才干却不能充分发挥，所以会抱怨，会怨天尤人；有嫉妒心但是性格忠诚。

枫树(独立型)
非平凡之辈，具有丰富的想象力和创造力，害羞，沉默寡言，有野心，骄傲，自信，总在寻求新的体验，有时候略显神经质，个性复杂，记忆力好，学习能力强，爱情生涯复杂多艰。

橡树(勇敢型)
健康，勇敢，强壮，无情，独立，敏感，不喜变革，脚踏实地，属于行动型。

橄榄树(智慧型)
喜爱阳光，温暖和温情，理智，均衡，远离攻击和暴力，宽容，快乐，平静，富正义感，敏感，不嫉妒，喜爱阅读，世故老练。

松树(讲究型)
喜欢与愉快的人群共伍，非常健康，懂得如何使自己过得舒适，非常活跃，性格天成，是很好的伙伴,很容易陷入爱情，但热度也会转瞬即逝。对任何事常抱失望的态度，除非证实是理想的事物。非常值得信赖，做事实际。

白杨树(不确定型)
外表精心装饰，不甚自信，偶尔会表现出勇敢的一面，需要处身于友好愉快的氛围，很挑剔，时常孤独，易产生仇恨心理，有艺术家的气质，是很好的组织者，有研究哲学的倾向，在很多情况下是可以信赖的人，对伴侣很重视。

花楸树(敏感型)
魅力无穷，天性愉快，不自负，喜欢引人注目，热爱生活，活跃，不安分，集独立和依赖的矛盾统一于一身，品位佳，有艺术气质，热情，情感丰富，是良好的伴侣，但不原谅他人的过错。

胡桃树(激情型)
无情，性格出奇，具强烈反差，富激情，常以自我为中心，攻击性强，高贵，眼界广阔，常有意想不到的反应和举止，野心无止境，无韧性，是不易相处的伴侣，不容易被别人喜欢，却常被崇拜。是有清晰头脑的战略家，嫉妒心重，遇事不妥协。

柳树(忧郁型)
漂亮但具忧郁气质，有吸引力，喜爱一切美丽的事物，品位佳，喜欢旅游，爱梦想，性格不安定，易反复，但很诚实，容易受人影响和左右，但不易相处，要求高，直觉灵敏，常为情所困，但有时候也是安定的伴侣。

mine ish 榆树. what about urs?
isit accurate?
im not sure.
tell mi ur tree ya?
hees. ((:

Cold + Sensitive Nose. =x

2007-03-12T18:01:00.000+08:00

went to see the doctor todae.
=x
down with cold. dignosed with sensitive nose.
-sigh-
how i wish i have 2 days MC instead of one.
can i request for another day?
is not i wana "geng".. just that i wish-ed* to attend tml's alumni committee meeting in the morning.
)):
i already miss-ed* the band practise on sat due to my lost of voice.
how how?
someone tell mi what should i do.
1) go back to the clinic to get one more day MC. 2) go to work and miss the meeting.
two choices onli..
dun ask me to follow my heart.
cos deep down in me, i don even know which choice to make.
wana go back office cos i wana clear the work which has piled up for today. and im still under probation. donwn my boss to think i have the tenancy to miss work lyk what i did during my 6mths attachment. =//
yet i wish-ed* to go back sch so much..
haiyo..
lyk what ben.ben says, im decisive but yet contradicting.

haven take my medication yet.
one spray for my nose. a cough syrup. tablets for my allergic condition in the morning. and some pain-killers.
tootpid me right. or should i say stubborn me.
seen the doctor but just dunwn to take medicine.
=x

somethings happened last night at home.
got so freak out that i scared kor kor!
=//
sorry.
went out to hunt for my missing lil bro.
chatted alot. have deep thoughts again.
how i wish-ed* whatever happened are all dreams.
but.. i know they arent.
i pray everything will be alright.
can i handle everything well.
should i carry on with my plans?
i dunno.
really wish to have a good cry.
somehow i cant take it anymore.
hate myself for pretending to be alright.
trying hard to make myself drunk.
gosh~!
i donwn to go back to the past.
the girl who doesnt knows what she's doing at that point of time.
donwn to be the silly girl who hurt herself to forget what is pain.
donwn to have depression again!
it took me so hard to get over it..
where are euu when i need euu?
in the end im just all alone again..

陈绮贞-还是会寂寞
曲:陈绮贞词:陈绮贞

早已忘了想你的滋味是什么
因为每分每秒都被你占据在心中
你的一举一动牵扯在我生活的隙缝
谁能告诉我离开你的我会有多自由
也曾想过躲进别人温暖的怀中
可是这么一来就一点意义也没有
我的高尚情操一直不断提醒着我
离开你的我不论过多久还是会寂寞
别对我小心翼翼
别让我看轻你
跟着我勇敢的走下去
别劝我回心转意
这不是廉价的爱情
看着我对我说真爱我

/* who am i to euu?

Fluid Bar & Lounge.

2007-03-11T13:40:00.000+08:00

歌曲：迷宫
歌手：7朵花专辑：爱情魔发师电视原声

究竟你想什么但眼泪骗不了我

如果是命定恋人为何还要对我

如此这样残忍

记得你曾说过有个爱情迷宫

只要我们能够碰头就能天长地久

如果真的爱我就别管怎么传说

让自尊它无情捉弄

关什么永恒不永恒

我不要自己一个人

去面对未知的迷宫

眼看着幸福就在前头却无法到手

不要自己一个人无助的盲目去摸索

爱你我像个小偷

我可以装做不懂你不爱我

终于有了选择

我不是你的晴空

你的心不爱我

只能继续委屈

做她的替代品

i've changed my blog song again!

=))

another lurvly song i like.

" there is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so. "

a quote given by my korkor.

he said is by william shakespare.

how come i feel that this blog entry is full of emo feeling?

wahaha*

very very long never update about myself le.

has been busy with One-North Residences.

finally fall sick le.

but.. no one to take care of me. =//

mebe that is why i still haven recover after so many days.

nah. its i never see doctor and have enough rest ba.

2weeks into my first full-time job. still okays i guess. theres more things for me to learn and ya. gotta Jiayou~!

went "clubbing" last night.

Fluid Bar & Lounge.

boring; bored!

whahaha*

lucky got my ben.ben to pei me.

((:

thanks! sorry to bring u to a boring place. =x

think none of my bros enjoy too ba.

cos ya. somehow the place cant be a clubbing place ba.

i dunno.

anyway, its an experience bah.

at least my weekend still not that boring ba.

can be better!!!

=DD

going out soon to meet von le.

think there are tons of things for us to catch up.

and i think i need someone to talk to also.

if not i think i dunno when i will breakdown and start crying like a toddler..

all i wish ish to be a bit more happier and healtier.

i really must jiayou!

dunwn to give up so fast!

sorry to worry euu guys.

hope i can pick myself up again.

/* i just wish i can forget the past..

i wish..

2007-03-09T19:18:00.000+08:00

tears are rolling in my eyes.
trying to hold them well.
dun wana let them flow out..
=x
its difficult. the feeling is terrible
i hate it.
just hate this kinda feeling so much..

mebe im too stress le.
or mebe im sick and tired.
or i just having some emotional moments right now.
i dunno.
i wanna scream~!

i need a hug so badly.
and a shoulder for me to cry on.
=//

/* hurtz.

Words to Have said When euu Are sad!

2007-03-04T12:26:00.000+08:00

words that are said when euu are sad... =//

1. 我以为小鸟飞不过沧海，是以为小鸟没有飞过沧海的勇气，十年以后我才发现，不是小鸟飞不过去，而是沧海的那一头，早已没有了等待……

2. 你走的那天，我决定不掉泪，迎着风撑着眼帘用力不眨眼……

3. 多谢你的绝情，让我学会死心……

4. 带著一根烟.浪迹天涯……

5. 木头对火说:"抱我"! 火拥抱了木头`木头微笑着化为灰烬! 火哭了!泪水熄灭了自己……当木头爱上烈火注定会被烧伤……

6. 当眼泪流下来，才知道，分开也是另一种明白。

7. 我真的爱你，闭上眼，以为我能忘记，但流下的眼泪，却没有骗到自己……

8. 回家的路上我哭了，眼泪再一次崩溃孓.无能为力这样走着，再也不敢骄傲奢求了。我还能够说些什么，我还能够做些什么？我好希望你会听见，因为爱你我让你走了……

9. 不要轻易说爱，许下的承诺就是欠下的债！

10. 是我的终究是我的`我终归是你的一个过客 `你始终不爱我`注定我和你就是什么都不会发生` 注定`注定只是注定`不管我怎么跨越不管我怎么想靠近你 `你还是会离开我的`我好想你`好想好想你`好想好想见你

11. 脸上的快乐，别人看得到。心里的痛又有谁能感觉到.

12. 分手后不可以做朋友,因为彼此伤害过.不可以做敌人.因为彼此深爱过,所以我们变成了最熟悉的陌生人.

13. 有的人与人之间的相遇就像是流星,瞬间迸发出令人羡慕的火花,却注定只是匆匆而过.

14. 时间会慢慢沉淀，有些人会在你心底慢慢模糊。学会放手，你的幸福需要自己的成全。

15. 我能感觉到你的心痛，你有你说不出的无奈...但是你做出一副无所谓的样子，你越是这样我就越难受

16. 有些的时候，正是为了爱才悄悄躲开.躲开的是身影，躲不开的却是那份默默的情怀。

　　
17. 爱到分才显珍贵，很多人都不懂珍惜拥有.只到失去才看到，其实那最熟悉的才是最珍贵的。

18. 有时，爱也是种伤害.残忍的人，选择伤害别人，善良的人，选择伤害自己。

　　
19. 你走了，带着我全部的爱走了，只是一句分手.我忍着眼泪看着你的背影，好想最后在抱你一次，好想在对你说一次"我爱你"。　

20. 淋过雨的空气，疲倦了的伤心，我记忆里的童话已经慢慢的融化。　

21.既然爱，为什么不说出口，有些东西失去了，就在也回不来了！

22. 相爱是种感觉，当这种感觉已经不在时，我却还在勉强自己，这叫责任！分手是种勇气！当这种勇气已经不在时，我却还在鼓励自己，这叫悲壮。

THANKS Yasu!
((:
received email from him. open up, its meaningful phrases!

*/ it hurts to tink of the past..

foul mood =((

2007-02-24T14:19:00.000+08:00

Foul Mood =S

i sees RED!
im piss-ed*! im angry!
but.. i have to control my temper and keep my cool.
really super duper disappointed with them le.
but, cant blame them too.
no passion for music = no committment.
can understand bah.
is like forcing them to do s'things which they dont like to do.
but still, im just so angry with their kinda attitude!

had some "lecture" with them.
but dun think they listen to what we said ba.
and i can sense that many ppl dun like me.
-sigh-
im just so hard to get along with?
anyway, i decide to join alumni band because i wana get back with my old cliques. share and continue our passion for music to the next gen / batch.
i dun give a damn if yer dun like me.
wahahaha*
sorry alumni peeps, im in a foul mood today.
forgive me!
due to my lack of sleep, my temper got so bad again.
=((
thanks for controlling my temper and ur tolerance!
appreciated*

edit my blog abit.
nice nice?
hees*
cant sleep last night.
onli went to bed at 4am.
rush to band this morning lor. lucky got hongyan to fetch la.
haahs*
he's still nice le hor.
((:

think i end here for now bah.
mind not working le.
have to go nap le i guess.
((:

eight lollis gone*

*/ smile please!

2007-02-24T01:51:00.000+08:00

Winter Love - BoA

As shining winter fairies come floating down

I kissed you smiling picture because I had nothing else to do

At that long line outside of the movies, we vowed to never stand in line here together again

But since my heart is next to yours

I still miss you even as a friend

But I can't turn back ever again

I love you, I want to see you again

with a kiss, expressed along side 10billion snowflakes

Until the day that we happen to cross paths someplace

Baby,even if you forget me

Is it okay for me to still love you?

I'll never forget you

Since the moment that I was alone,

I've realised what true loneliness is

These overwhelming feelings in my heart that wont's stop flowing out

Now, the way to love a person

Is so important that i think a person shouldn't forget it

No matter how many times my address changes

I'll never let go of that voice or that dream

Even if you love someone else as time flows by

I'll still remember you

Our destined meeting and the warmth we shared

I'm glad that it was you, and I can say it from my heart

Until we someday meet again

We can't stop the future from coming

The feeling of sadness can quickly become forever

Even if I get wounded when I'm happy,

When I've fallen in love with a someone

Just alive

I love you, I want to see you again

with a kiss, expressed along side 10billion snowflakes

Until the day that we happen to cross paths someplace

Baby,even if you forget me

Is it okay for me to still love you?

I'll never forget you

BoA's new album. One of the song, Winter Love.

above is the lyrics in English.

nice & meaningful.

as you listen to the song and follow thru the lyrics. wah. euu will have the feel of what im feeling as i listen to the song.

had changed my blog song to winter love cuz im gettin in lurve with this song le.

((:

actually right now im kinda scared!

a dog kept on barking. the barking sound is from somewhere. but i dunno where.

outside my kor's room's window.

so loud and clear can.

im scare..

nearly burst out crying.

who can save me at this hour?

other than busting my music at this hour, i really dunno what i can do to cover up the barking sound and distract myself from hearing the eerie barking sound le.

HELP~!

went to mrs soon's house for house visit.

after so long, finally get to catch up with her.

her precious baby boy is so cute can.

forgot to take photo of him.

nvm, shall remember the next time i go visit her.

hees*

then went to thomson prata place with von, pohhuat & hongyan.

ate and chill-ed* there for awhile.

lurve outing and catching up with old friends.

cant stand hongyan's driving.

he drive so damm slow can..

gahhh~

and yups. he din want to send me and von home!

so unman can.

*humpf*

whahaha*

=DD

okays.

blog again.

gotta go do some converting & renaming of songs name.

nites.

take care peeps.

-seven lollis gone-

][ its bout euu & me.

Photos~!

2007-02-23T15:38:00.000+08:00

Photos..

Promised to upload photos the other day.
but i din..
so now now,
i shall upload some picts from the MoS party-ing.
as i got quite alot of picts taken that day,
euu guys might wan to visit my personal webby to look at the picts.
link: www.rainishpiggy.multiply.com
((:

* Me. in MoS toilet. =D

Binru/ Rain/ Dre/ Anne.

BEM - Crazy girlies.

Jereme - Anne - Rain - Dre

Me & Dre. - Notti Thomas behind.

NP; BEM; Celebrating the end of Attachment~!

Nora/ Rain/ Dre/ Anne. - we lurve drinking * clubbing

i look tipsy. hugs* anne. with dre.

Okays. thats about all.
hees*
still got more picts coming out.
wait patiently.
*wink*

*/ i lurve bring myself.

once wrong. forever wrong.

2007-02-23T14:37:00.000+08:00

Silly Me. . .

i wish-ed* i never do what my mind told me to do. i hope its all a dream.

but.. whats the point of turning back time when what done is done.

he's angry.

so.. what can i do now?

nothing i guess.

a moment of sillyness had changed some part of us.

but..

it brought back some memories of the past.

his reaction is the same as "J".

so whats the point of saying euu wont be like him, when euu are behaving the same as him?

forget it.

gahhh~!

din wan to blog.

just want to be lazy.

wana spend my rest of the holidays happily.

2 more days.

gonna be a no-life me again le bah.

have to start work. thou its the same place same people.

but.. different jobscope. different treatment.

no longer an interin but a full-timer of KF.

stress up me.

im afraid. im just so scare.

but. noone knows i guess.

)):

*wish me all the best peepz.*

i lurve BoA's new album.

especially winetr lurve!

nice song!

link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=djJz7sOgmAs

and i lurve her key of heart.

the MTV for Olympus commercial is so touching and nice can.

link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bu0AwMq3O8c

everything of her is just so beautiful.

=DD

say wana upload photos also haven.

aiyo.

im just so lazy can.

wahahah*

will upload in the next entry.

=pPp

dun feel like bloggin or updating what i had did for the past few days or even about CNY.

cos basically is nothing much.

never went for much house-visiting.

CNY this year is so dull can..

angbao is jus so little till haiyo..

but..

there's still fun parts lah.

will tell euu guys later!

end here.

cos im in a stupid down mood now.

my mind is in a stupid mess.

// six lollis gone~ //

*/ sorry. im just so silly..

sweet~!

2007-02-19T00:33:00.000+08:00

im touched~!

wondering who can make me so touched right.

whahaha*

just a casual comment : where's my lollipops?

the outcome is : i got 23 lollipops just in like one hrs time after i said those words.

although dun have my most wanted lemon-flavour lolli, but i still got my 2nd most wanted flavour, which is the strawberry! =DD

thanks to HIM!

super-duper shocked when he msg me saying his under my blk. no choice have to go down lor. was so surprised when he passed me the packet of lollis.

really really touched!

thanks so much. i will enjoy eating them.

so whats the meaning behind 23?

asked him why bought 23 sticks, he dunwan say.

-.-''

sounds like the new show " Number 23 ".

wahahaha*

hmmm. at first i thought is jus a number. but think and think mebe there's really meaning behind it.

anyhow, im still in the state of shock.

sat down under blk and chat. yah. its been so long since we last met and catch things up with each other. somehow i feel so nervous. mebe because we too too long nv meet le bah.

encounter so many things on my way up.

saw a man lying flat with his face down on the floor motionless! =//

next, saw a bowl with rice, fried egg and vegi, with a cup of drink on a platform outside the shop under my blk.

haahs*

kinda eerrie can.

and ya, he nv stop scaring me even after i enter the lift.

okays.

shall end here le.

-one lolli gone-

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!
ITS PIGGY 2007!

GONG XI GONG XI!!!

*. a night of sweetness.

happy valentine's day.

2007-02-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

happy valentine's day!

to those singles out there, dun be sad or what. its a friendship day too. so ask ur single friends out!
((=
as for those who are attached, spend this romantic day with ur precious. have a wonderful night ya.
yups.
wishes and greetings done.
back to me.
so where im heading to on this special day?
not with him. *sad*
but.. with her.
my dearest girl, von!
really gonna thank her lor. always make my day. always there when i feel so lost.
gonna spend this lovers-everywhere day with her at our usual hangout place.
CCK de Kbox!
wahahaha*
anyone going there or wana go k, pls give me a ring. can join me and von!
((=

please dont ask why he nv ask me out or why i nv ask him out.
cos my answer is " i dunno! ".
kinda sad. but i actually prepared le la.
so, nothing to be really disappointed about lor.
at least i still got a true friend to spend this day with me.
i had learnt to look on the brighter side of life le.
yups.
sound not like the girl u people know hor.
hees*

how i wish i got surprise when i wake up tomorrow.
wana receive roses, or my fave white tulips.
i know i know. dun daydream right.
haahs*
no la.
must get use to lonely festives.
my poor kor kor must be more lonlier than me ba.
=/
really really hope his righ-one will come soon!
as for my lil' bro, hope he and girl will be everlasting.
((=

okays la.
think i end here le.
suddenly feel so emo again.
but,
im okays!
gonna upload my pics that i took recently, especially at MoS de tomorrow.
kinda tired after watching 4dvds today.
they are kungfu mahjong, my kungfu sweetheart, silk, saw 3.
=//
okays.
Nights peeps.

*.___ precious, happy valentine!

fruitful weekend! ((:

2007-02-11T21:53:00.001+08:00

090207, Friday

ENDED!
yesh! attachment ended. it ended in quite a simple. normal way. quietly i left the company that day.
but but..
i will be a full-timer worker in KF from 26/02 onwards!
yesh, they offer to keep mi back!
*woo
im so damm super happy can!
positiong held : Asst. Coordinator i think.
job scope: assist the four ladies. helping them in the billings first. then slowly get to learn how to handle important task. ((:
im looking forward!
hope and pray i can do and complete all task given to me.
kinda scared!
=//

went back home straight after work.
but..
went to meet my family up at admiratly for dinner and some CNY shopping.
walk home with kor with heavy bags of mandrain oranges.
so heavy can!
anyway rush to bathe and get changed.
cant decide what to wear..
in the end i think i wore so ugly can!
sad sad..
hate rushing!
but.. who ask me to have lousy time management.
met up with dre at tpy mrt.
headed to clarke quay to meet the rest of them.

party-ing!
open bottle.
drink and drink.
dance and dance.
i just lurve clubbing with my whole bunch of besties and friends!
but yet, somehow or rather im emo.
-sigh-
kana see thru my emo mood by thomas.
=/
mebe was thinking of my boy ba.
he dun sound happy when he called.
i know, who lyk their girls to go club.
cos girls are the ones who always kana "jia ba".
indeed i kana!
=S
so super angry..
but hais. clubbing its lidat.
but after that night, my conclusion is : i will onli club went there is any gathering or what. cos dancing with heels and dance non-stop is so so so tiring!
whahhaha*
plus im not those clubber. not those chiongster. cos actually i dun really lyk clubbing!
left the place feeling so shag at around 430.
took NR2 and reach 888 den cab home.
because im too dizzy and tired to walk home from there.
had a gud bathe and went to bed.

100207, Saturday

woke up at 730 by boy's morning call.
but i went back to slp.
in between woke up to reply johnson's sms.
finally wake up at 9 by xinhui's call.
im late for band practise!
thanks calvin for picking me up at yishun with my 3 lovely juniors.
((:
as usual. have to face a band of slackers.
have to do their marching recording. but yet, they are just so super slack can!
kinda disappointed..
too tired to scold them.
but i kana scolded "kao pei" by a idotic girl.
dun ever know who are u, if not u better watcha.
but..
i scolded nbcb back. cos i just hate ppl scold for no reasons.
there might be misunderstanding. cos mebe she not scolding me.
but.. i dun care.
spoilt my mood for the entire day.
cos i kana diao by ppl la.
idiotic!
wana be ah lian, i can be more lian lor..
@$#*&!(*#(^
sorry peeps.
really need to let it out..

went to LJS to eat lunch with von, xinhui, cheryl, timo, elvin, and a junior whom i dunno his name! =x
yummy!
i lurve potato salad and skin-on-potato!
hees*
headed to J8.
chilled at cafe cartel.
had strawberry milkshake and shared chocolate ice-cream with von.
shucks!
all sweet stuff.. fat fat me!!!
)):
had some talks and called up those ppl who actually said they wana join alumni. but in the end call le den no they are not free or not intrested.
-sigh-
anyway head to wdlands library after we left J8.
accompanied von to find her finance book.
founded! was so happy.
den went to shop.
bought 2 pairs of earrings. oh yah, i bought a princess belt and a ring at J8!
shopping is so nice!
hees*
den head to sembawang to shop for clothes. but nv buy any.
went to yishun for my temple session.
temple til 12mn.
can imagine how many ppl..

100207, Saturday

got home at 1.
bathe le. den online awhile den went to sleep.
slept til 1pm today! so shiok!
i lurve sleeping. especially having my precious beauty sleep.
((:
met up with von at 2 plus to shop for my CNY clothes.
bought 2 tops and one bottom.
bought some items from aries.
hees.
head to wdl to buy mac for my lil bro. and green apple milk tea for myself.
came online til now.
can imagine im stoning in front of the screen the whole evening.
so freaking sianz!
i wana go out!!!

2 weeks le.
yah.
14 days passed jus lidat.
i miss-ed*
i really do.
i haven seen him for 2 weeks. onli get to hear his voice thru all the calls we made.
i wonder what status we are in now.
i wonder how much i stand in his heart.
i really wonder if i should continue this way im walking now.
im lost. im afraid.
keeping myself busy. telling myself not to think and miss. but, he jus appear in my mind and even in my dreams.
think im really falling for him le..
but..
is he serious?
i dunno.
i simply miss him so much.
why do i always have to make the first move to call him..
-arrrgh-
im feelin so down now.
shucks!
pls dun cry!!!
haahahs*

*gonna be a lonely.valentine.

)):

boy, i just miss u soo..

a sweet story.

2007-02-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

Ganster Love Story? I Don't Think So...

*Baby: i love you

-Thug: yeah i know everyone does!

*Baby: really?

-Thug: yeah... everyone of my friends that are girls tell me that everyday.

*Baby: oh... but am i only your friend?

-Thug: no... youre my girlfriend...why?

*Baby: so when i say i love you i really do mean it

-Thug: yeah i know you do mean it... its just that you dont need to tell me that you love me anymore cuz i know you love me since the day we been together and i love you more each and everyday.

*Baby: ......

-Thug: so wanna go somewhere tonight for our 7th anniversary?

*Baby: yeah... where?

-Thug: i dont know... maybe movie then dinner?

*Baby: ok.

-Thug: i'll pick you up after i get off from work while you go get yourself ready ok?

Baby: ok, but what time do you get off?

-Thug: in 2 hours time but then i gotta go home and yeah get ready, which takes about 15 to 20 mintues...

*Baby: eh... i thought you didnt have to work today?

-Thug: one of my co-workers called to say he's sick, so i have to replace him.

*Baby: oh okay! so i'll see you around 7:30 then?

-Thug: yeah! and babe...

*Baby: yeah?

-Thug: i love you

*Baby: i love you too!

-Thug: ok babe, my manager is like looking at me. so yeah.... i gotta go.

*Baby: ok bye!

-Thug: bye.

****************************

2 hours later...

the thug drives to his baby's house and walks up to the door and rings the bell.

*Baby: hey! (gives a kiss to herboyfriend)

-Thug: wassup... are you ready?

*Baby: um... wait... let me get my bag and we can go ok?

-Thug: ok.

they both watched a movie and ate dinner....

once they were done eating, they head back to the car.

but before she got into the car...

-Thug: wait! can i blind fold you?

*Baby: why??!

-Thug: its a suprise.

*Baby: what kind of suprise?

-Thug: a big one!!!

*Baby: okay but only if you promise me that you will hold my hand while you're driving.

-Thug: ok. i promise.

*Baby: ok blind fold me then.

so they drove off...........

and then they stoped at somewhere.

-Thug: ok we're here!

*Baby: where?

-Thug: wait.. let me walk you to the place!

*Baby: what place?

-Thug: somewhere! (and gives a kiss to her on the lips)

*Baby: babe!...

the thug walks her to the place..

-Thug: ok.... let me take the blindfold off.

*Baby: where are we?

he takes it off her and she opens her eyes and sees the view of the city and at that same spot where he first asked her to be his girl...

*Baby: OMG.... (tears come down)

-Thug: why are you crying?

*Baby: this is where you first asked me out...

-Thug: will you be with me for the rest of your life? (he asked on his knees and after he says that... behind him... in the air it says "will you marry me?" in firworks)

*Baby: (tears rolled down)

-Thug: i wasn't at work when you called me... i was planning all these.

*Baby: get up!

-Thug: yeah?

*Baby: (kisses him)

-Thug: is that a yes or a no?

*Baby: yes!

isnt it sweet?

how i wish this fairytale thingy will happen on me.

whahaha*

i sure will touched til siao and straight away say "I DO!".

finished my presentation today.

was okays i guessed.

tml is the last day at work.

kinda bu she de..

but..

i dun think i will be kept back by them.

somehow or rather my reputation is not that gud anymore in there.

i miss. i sure will miss my mimi and nui nui. =//

-sigh-

nice memories and good times do flies.

its time to say goodbye le ba.

hope i wont tear tml.

hees*

GOOD LUCK for all O levels takers.

results will be out tomorrow.

dont worry juniors, its not a doom day for u people.

i will be praying for u all!

same goes for von. dont panic or nervous, cos u will get gud result too!

((:

everyone pls let this senior know how ur result okays.

i will be waiting.

clubbing tml!

*woo-hoo

MoS! i lurve clubbing.

gonna enjoy myself to the fullerest!

same goes for everyone.

must club and drink til siao tml!!

(((:

think i going off le.

having bad flu.

super tired also.

but..

haahs*

waiting for my boy's call..

anyway,

nights everyone!

*babe, i really miss-ed euu so muchies. )):

bored!

2007-02-06T22:22:00.001+08:00

be my valentine. <3

will euu?

i really pray and hope that day wont be a lonely valentine.

but..

i already prepare for the worst le.

=//

i wana sum my past few days. but somehow im just so lazy.

jus so lazy to type.

sometimes it so hard to put my thoughts in words.

how i wish someone jus understand me so detail that i dun have to speak, he/she already know what im thinking le. ((:

like right now, there are so many questions in my mind.

i wished to ask. but yet i hold back.

i wished to know the truth but yet i scare to face the reality.

im jus so contradicting can..

arrrgh~

i dunno what im thinking.

sianz sianz sianz...

think i dun blog le.

wahaha*

boring me.

think i going bed soon liao.

duno why so tired and sleepy.

before that. show 2 pics taken on sunday when i went shopping with my family.

((:

i like the second one.

dunno why also..

*miss-ed

song. -melody

2007-02-03T17:58:00.000+08:00

爱多少早知道

歌手：殷悦专辑：爱的melody

我的头发已全部剪掉

你指定的发型我现在不想要

我再也不会抱着你聊

聊那些以前以为有的未来

对你说的话

现在想起来多可笑

请你别太计较

早知道我会爱得受不了

就该随身带着一把剪刀

把所有我不爱的画面都去掉是否我会更好

早知道认识你像玩高空弹跳

拉扯你我爱的距离忽大忽小

也许认识我的时候你就知道

你对我的爱有多少

i lurve this song!

a song which can be found in Express Boy. ((:

very nice. but kinda sad..

bought tears to my eyes.

just keep listening to it when i found this song last night.

bought out some thoughts of mine.

its hard to explain.

all i wish now is to have euu right here giving me a big teddy hug.

i really really need a shoulder to cry on.

i dun wish to pretend to be happie anymore.

i dun wish to be bothered by simple stuff.

why cant i just get over it?

can someone just tell me what to do?

=//

* baby, all i want ish euu ___

In Office. =//

2007-02-02T15:09:00.000+08:00

Updates!

28 January 07 - 31 Janauary 07.

its been so long since i last blog le. =//

has been so busy with Sky@Eleven thingy.

last sunday was at showflat from 3pm to nearly midnight lor.

1st day got about 60 units sold. kinda chaotic. gotta write so many options. gotta sort things out after the showflat closes. and blah blah blah.

met up with my boy at YCK. he picked me up from there than bought me to mac. hees. ((:

den he sent me home after spending some time tog.

* thanks boy!

dragged myself to the work place the next morning at 7am.

started work by zapping doucments. gosh. can u imagine standing infront of the photocopier for more than 12hrs is a torture to me. and the freaking old machine keep on giving mi endless problem..

i nearly broke down crying..

becos of those agents keep rushing me and stuff. hais. i flare at them. shouted at them.. chasing them out of the office. leaving a bad impression to all my colleagues. im sorry guys! especially those associates who kana my temper that day.

* sorry people! =//

got home late again.took a cab home. cos kinda late le. and im already half-dead when they chased me home.

next morning went back there to sort out the options. from 10am to nearly 9pm, i was basically siting on the floor sorting out all those papers.

can forget about hunger. onli manager to eat at 4 plus. (that my lunch okays? got breakfast for myself but din have time to eat..)

i forgot about my final report submission is the next day! thanks to wen for calling me and remind me, if not i sure forget de lor.

rush home and started doing it til the very next day.

)):

went back office to have my stuff printed.

*thanks my dear jj for sending mi urs as a guideline. thanks mimi for preparing those documents for me to insert to my report. thanks alyssa for supporting me. ((: THANKS!!!

took a day off. went back school.

catch up with my besties! ((:

but never went out with them cos i needed to go home to have my beauty sleep.

whahaha*

1 February 07 - 2 February 07.

Yesterday dressed down. cos needed to help my department shift things as we changed to a new space, which is occupied by the R2 previously.

Sooo many things to move.. by the late afternoon, im already shag till dunno like what le.

but got tea break. lolx. went downstairs for a walk.

whahaha*

but im not used to the new place. feel kinda weird and lost.

just like the feeling i had when i first moved to my new house.

anyhow, i also left 1 week in this company.

actually i dun have to give a damn to what it is going to be ba.

but talking about it, i will miss some people here. especially my mimi and alyssa.

=//

back home, was finallising my design for the alumni membership card. thanks kor for helping me. especially the design for the t-shirt.

((:

yups, my 'creative director' post must let go if i dun work harder to improve my sense of design le.

haahs*

went to bed early cos im totally drained out after a week of "hard work".

im so bored now can?!

that is why im here to blog sucha long entry when everyone else in the department is busy with theri own stuff.

haahs*

but the department who is in-charge of me is not around.

not a single soul.

trying to act busy with a guestbook infront of me.

=//

already have the kind of 'graudting' mood le.

how i wish today is the last day here.

i really cant wait for next friday..

3 more working days and im a free-bird le.

heehs*

sotong me, forget to bring my jacket out. and im now in office freezing cold lor.

brrrr~

1.5hr to go and i can go home le.

hees.

weekend!

okays.

think i end here le bah.

((:

* miss-ed __ especially ur hugs.

Escape.

ima hurt! yesh, ima really hurt..

fcuking piss-ed*!

Story from A Husband...

physically&mentallyDRAINED*

Personality Test

"I am affectionate and skeptical"

+*._I MISS-ed_.*+

+*._BACK_.*+

+*._Valentine _.*+

+*._Should I ? _.*+

260807 - SUNDAY! (:

+*._Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone _.*+

+*._UPDATE!_.*+

+*._Let's HOLD hand in hand!_.*+

+*._HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!_.*+

+*._BORING.SUNDAY!_.*+

200 Pounds Beauty

Early Moring! =/

丁噹-可以不可以 (完整版MV)

Lesson One: Priorities in Life

firehouse - i live my life for you

saddist. )':

DHT - Listen To Your Heart (Slow)

Wait For You!

6 weird thingy game. =/

Whats Your Drean Engagement Ring?

breaking down.

ihateeuu!

New Song! (:

SHOP! SHOP! SHOP!

tell me its isnt so.

Gareth Gates - Say It Isn't So

blanks..

Lovynn Kan - Zui Hou Yi Ci

Would You Be There

Thanks fer the Surprise!

The Great Singapore Sales

Photos!

New Blogskin! =D

sweetest moment! <3

UPDATE!

u no longer around.

BASTARD! =S

end-ed*

i miss him =X

Which Tree You Belongs To?

Cold + Sensitive Nose. =x

Fluid Bar & Lounge.

i wish..

Words to Have said When euu Are sad!

foul mood =((

Photos~!

once wrong. forever wrong.

sweet~!

happy valentine's day.

fruitful weekend! ((:

a sweet story.

bored!

song. -melody

In Office. =//

+._I MISS-ed_.+

+._BACK_.+

+._Valentine _.+

+._Should I ? _.+

+._Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone _.+

+._UPDATE!_.+

+._Let's HOLD hand in hand!_.+

+._HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!_.+

+._BORING.SUNDAY!_.+