Monday, March 26, 2007
DIGUSTING RETARD! FUCKING BASTARD!!
im seeing RED!
ARRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!
do all shawns behaved the same?
wahahaha*
this shawn from WLNY, his a fucking retard can?
this is the 3rd time he PM me le.
lets see what he wrote..
" wanna have sex now? i pay $700 cash, blowjob $350 cash now so how? i can pay u full $700 cash b4 i strip u. all u gotta do is just spread ur legs wide and let me fuck u hard n fast till u n i cum! in the dark, off light, wan? i can lick ur pussy too. $700 cash. wan? "
report him to the webmaster before.
no use. no action. nothing done.
quite alot of the WLNY girls kana from him.
its irritating can.
im really boiling now.
how i wish i can give him a punch. a tight slap and ...
=S
i din feel any better..
=[
i cried myself to sleep last night.
i thought wake up i will be much more better.
but i din.
woke up with a painful headache. just like the kind which one will get after he/she drunk and hang-over.
right now as im writing, tears still rolled down like nobody's business.
i tried not to think. not to miss.
but..
i cant..
wonder if he's okay. hope he's coping well..
=//
its gonna pour soon.
BUT T.O.R is going SENTOSA!
PLEASE DUN START RAINING AT SENTOSA CAN..
let me enjoy my off day.
i wana tan.
i wana be happy.
-sigh-
i cant even make myself smile, how am i going to cheer myself up?
in the end.. its the end!
heaven really testing out my patient and my will power.
i know there are still more difficult setbacks in life for me to handle but..
im really tired of it. sick of it!
HELP~!
/*. baby, don't go.
hold me TIGHT:and NEVER let go-7:46 AM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
self-destruction!has been activated since 2100hr 25 MARCH 2007.Fuck! i HATE it~!knew it. i knew it..things finally turned out the way i predicted. BUT..its not what i expected. is something i dun wish for.will things change after he cool down?will we be like the same as the past?damnit!its driving me crazy!!!cry; tears.yah. i cried~!how i wish there's someone right here.i need a shoulder. i need a hug.let me have a gud cry can?i really drain and tired of everything.arrrgh...=S='[=/what mood im in now?status: unknown.pending: MIA mission.sorry pals.if i really MIA, let me be okays.i will be back..i think i need time.i dunno how long i need.but ya.hope i be the same girl as who i am before.no one will understand how i feel now.i wish i can express myself better.but..i think no point.take care.((:dun wry for me.PS: i always say i will MIA but i never did it successfully! =D/* it hurts to know the truth. i wish-ed* yer answer will be the same as mine.
hold me TIGHT:and NEVER let go-9:40 PM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
miss-ed*
the image of him started flashing back to my mind.
listening to the songs we used to sing and hum.
stepping on the ground in malls where we once left our footprints behind.
watching muvees at those threaters we use to watch our muvees..
-sigh-
i start to miss him again!
=//
i thought i long-ed* forget about him le.. but now i know i haven!
im being silly all the while.
thinking i can handle everything on my own.
wishing keeping myself busy with work and school stuff i will keep my mind from running away.
but.. whenever it comes to those quiet moment, especially at night, i will start to have flashback of the past.
that day i tear-ed because i thought of him.
i din cry-out-loud becos i dunwn to scare my fren.
i dunwn to reveal the weakest side of me.
ya.
i wish i can go for a brain-washing session.
how i wish the memory for that 2years can just be erased from my brain.
hais*
can i overcome it?
its been 4mths le.
his moving on well with his life.
but.. am i moving on too?
this path i chose it myself. obviously i have to carry on walking til i come to an end.
no matter the path is the right one or the wrong one, i do hope there is someone to support me thru.
my life did changed a little after we both went on seperate ways.
some part of my life seems so different without him around.
i have to get over it. i have to get use to being alone after 2years.
til now it seems so tough..
seeing other couples tog so sweet i do get envious.
=/
i really really miss-ed*
but..
i wont want to go back or turn back times now.
everything will be so different; things wun be the same as before le.
and i doubt he will want too.
very long neber update le.
more than a week neber blog.
thanks to those pals who keep visiting my blog and tag.
((:
touch-ed*
was at Pavilion 11 showflat last week.
weekend gonna get burnt this week! =//
have to go down to The Trillium showflat. its LAUNCHING soon!
location: opp Great World; near to Zouk!
wahahaha*
imagine can go clubbing after work.
-wink-
getting along well with my 2 retards!
lurve them to bits.
they are 2 IO students from SP.
thou onli know them for 1mth but we seems to click!
=D
hees*
xuemin and alex, euu girls brighten up my day in office!
its GREAT knowing euu 2!!!
friends come and goes.
i appreciate and treasure those who respect and treasure me.
but..
what to do with those that dun even there to let others know we are friends?
whats wrong being a friend of yers? i mean why must we behave so secretive? why so scare ppl find out?
hahas*
okays. its kinda complicated. i also dunno how to say about the stupid friendship of ours.
=S
i craving for mango-pudding!
TOOTPID KENJI~!
his making me crazy.
trying to tempt me with his mango puddin!
so angry!!! =S
-humpf-
okays.
off to chat with my Queen of RETARD-ED!
=DD
will blog again.
hees.
nights peeps!
/* sweetz; darlings; i miss-ed* my dearest shawn!
hold me TIGHT:and NEVER let go-11:25 PM
Monday, March 12, 2007
Which Tree You Belongs To?
12.23-01.01]]苹果树│01.02-01.11]]枞 树│01.12-01.24]]榆 树 01.25-02.03]]柏 树│02.04-02.08]]白杨树│02.09-20.18]]杉 树│ 02.19-02.28]]松 树│03.01-03.10]]柳 树│03.11- 03.20]]椴 树│ 03.21-03.21]]橡 树│03.22-03.31]]榛子树│04.01-04.10]]花楸树│ 04.11-04.20]]枫 树│04.21-04.30]]胡桃树│05.01-05.14]]白杨树│ 05.15-05.24]]栗 树│05.25-06.03]]白蜡树│06.04-06.13]]角 树│ 06.14-06.23]]无花树│06.24-06.24]]桦 树│06.25- 07.04]]苹果树│ 07.05-07.14]]枞 树│07.15-07.25]]榆 树│07.26-08.04]]柏 树│ 08.05-08.13]]白杨树│08.14-08.23]]杉 树│08.24-09.02]]松 树│ 09.03-09.12]]柳 树│09.13-09.22]]椴 树│09.23-09.23]]橄榄树│ 09.24-10.03]]榛子树│10.04-10.13]]花楸树│10.14- 10.23]]枫 树│ 10.24-11.11]]胡桃树│11.12-11.21]]栗 树│11.22-12.01]]白蜡树│ 12.02-12.11]]角 树│12.12-12.21]]无花树│12.22-12.22]]榉 树│
答案如下：
苹果树(爱情型)
身材纤细，魅力无穷，富感染力，吸引力强，无忧无虑，想象力丰富，给人以愉悦的感觉。略显浮躁，喜爱冒险，敏感，时常陷入爱情，是忠实温柔的情人，喜欢爱人和被爱的感觉，懂得生活，享受今朝。
白蜡树(进取型)
有着无与伦比的吸引力，活泼冲动，要求多多，不在意别人的批评，有野心，聪明能干，喜欢与命运抗争，容易以自我为中心，是可以完全依靠，值得信赖的人，是可靠和谨慎的情人，有时候理智多过感情，但是对伴侣很重视。
榉树(创造型)
品位不凡，在意自己的形象，唯物主义者，生活和事业井井有条，是出色的领导，不会冒不必要的险，理智，是绝佳的终身伴侣，热衷于身材的保持（瘦身，运动等）。
桦树(灵感型)
活泼，有吸引力，文雅，友好，不做作，谦逊，不喜过分之举，痛恨庸俗，享受生活本来的自然恬静，不冲动，富有想象力，有些许野心，善于营造安静怡人的氛围。
杉树(自信型)
相貌平平，适应环境的能力强，喜奢侈，身体健康，大方，不害羞，容易看不起他人，过于自信，有决断力，性格浮躁，喜欢引人注目，有才干，刻苦，乐观，果断；等待一生中的真爱的到来。
栗子树(诚实型)
相貌出色，不喜引人注目，有良好的正义感，活泼风趣，天生的外交家可以作到上司的位子。但是在群体中常因不自信和敏感而轻易动怒，有时感到不被人理解。一生中只爱一次，不会轻易找到自己的伴侣。
柏树(忠诚型)
强壮，适应能力强，认命，乐观知足，渴望金钱和他人的承认，不喜孤独，是热情的伴侣，不易满足，但仍然可靠。任性，性情急噪，好追究，粗心。
榆树(贵族型)
体形优美，穿着有品位，谦逊，高贵，要求高，不原谅他人的过错。天性快乐，喜欢处于领导地位而不是跟从，是诚实可信的伴侣，喜欢为他人出谋划策，慷慨大方，富幽默感，做事切合实际。
无花果树(敏感型)
非常强壮，独立，有些以自我意愿为中心，不喜矛盾与争论，热爱生活，热爱家庭，孩子和动物，富幽默感，喜欢闲适懒散，有实际能力和才智。
枞树(神秘型)
品位不凡，威严，略显高深，喜爱一切美丽的事物，易怒，固执，有些利己，但关心接近他的人。谦逊，但非常有野心，有才能，刻苦，是不甚令人满意的伴侣，朋友众多，树敌也多，是可以信赖的人。
榛树(特别型)
有魅力，没有过高的要求，非常理解他人，知道如何给人以深刻印象，为了社会的事业积极的贡献自己的力量。判断力准确，受人欢迎，易怒，性格有时反复无常，仍然是诚实宽容的情人。
角树(品位绝佳型)
形象出色，有酷酷的外表，在意自己的外表和条件，品位出众，不自私自利，懂得为自己安排舒适的生活，有理有序，期待从感情丰富的伴侣那里得到关爱和认同，梦想得到不同寻常的情人，对情感很挑剔，对大多数人不信任，对自己的决定总是没有把握，但有责任心。
椴树(疑虑型)
平静地接受生活的给予，不喜斗争，不喜压力和过劳，不喜欢懒散和无所事事，性格温和宽厚，肯为朋友作出牺牲，有才干却不能充分发挥，所以会抱怨，会怨天尤人；有嫉妒心但是性格忠诚。
枫树(独立型)
非平凡之辈，具有丰富的想象力和创造力，害羞，沉默寡言，有野心，骄傲，自信，总在寻求新的体验，有时候略显神经质，个性复杂，记忆力好，学习能力强，爱情生涯复杂多艰。
橡树(勇敢型)
健康，勇敢，强壮，无情，独立，敏感，不喜变革，脚踏实地，属于行动型。
橄榄树(智慧型)
喜爱阳光，温暖和温情，理智，均衡，远离攻击和暴力，宽容，快乐，平静，富正义感，敏感，不嫉妒，喜爱阅读，世故老练。
松树(讲究型)
喜欢与愉快的人群共伍，非常健康，懂得如何使自己过得舒适，非常活跃，性格天成，是很好的伙伴,很容易陷入爱情，但热度也会转瞬即逝。对任何事常抱失望的态度，除非证实是理想的事物。非常值得信赖，做事实际。
白杨树(不确定型)
外表精心装饰，不甚自信，偶尔会表现出勇敢的一面，需要处身于友好愉快的氛围，很挑剔，时常孤独，易产生仇恨心理，有艺术家的气质，是很好的组织者，有研究哲学的倾向，在很多情况下是可以信赖的人，对伴侣很重视。
花楸树(敏感型)
魅力无穷，天性愉快，不自负，喜欢引人注目，热爱生活，活跃，不安分，集独立和依赖的矛盾统一于一身，品位佳，有艺术气质，热情，情感丰富，是良好的伴侣，但不原谅他人的过错。
胡桃树(激情型)
无情，性格出奇，具强烈反差，富激情，常以自我为中心，攻击性强，高贵，眼界广阔，常有意想不到的反应和举止，野心无止境，无韧性，是不易相处的伴侣，不容易被别人喜欢，却常被崇拜。是有清晰头脑的战略家，嫉妒心重，遇事不妥协。
柳树(忧郁型)
漂亮但具忧郁气质，有吸引力，喜爱一切美丽的事物，品位佳，喜欢旅游，爱梦想，性格不安定，易反复，但很诚实，容易受人影响和左右，但不易相处，要求高，直觉灵敏，常为情所困，但有时候也是安定的伴侣。
mine ish 榆树. what about urs?
isit accurate?
im not sure.
tell mi ur tree ya?
hees. ((:
hold me TIGHT:and NEVER let go-6:06 PM
went to see the doctor todae. =xdown with cold. dignosed with sensitive nose. -sigh-how i wish i have 2 days MC instead of one.can i request for another day?is not i wana "geng".. just that i wish-ed* to attend tml's alumni committee meeting in the morning. )):i already miss-ed* the band practise on sat due to my lost of voice.how how? someone tell mi what should i do.1) go back to the clinic to get one more day MC. 2) go to work and miss the meeting. two choices onli..dun ask me to follow my heart. cos deep down in me, i don even know which choice to make. wana go back office cos i wana clear the work which has piled up for today. and im still under probation. donwn my boss to think i have the tenancy to miss work lyk what i did during my 6mths attachment. =//yet i wish-ed* to go back sch so much..haiyo.. lyk what ben.ben says, im decisive but yet contradicting.
haven take my medication yet. one spray for my nose. a cough syrup. tablets for my allergic condition in the morning. and some pain-killers.tootpid me right. or should i say stubborn me.seen the doctor but just dunwn to take medicine. =x
somethings happened last night at home.got so freak out that i scared kor kor!=//sorry.went out to hunt for my missing lil bro. chatted alot. have deep thoughts again.how i wish-ed* whatever happened are all dreams. but.. i know they arent. i pray everything will be alright.can i handle everything well.should i carry on with my plans?i dunno.really wish to have a good cry. somehow i cant take it anymore.hate myself for pretending to be alright.trying hard to make myself drunk.gosh~!i donwn to go back to the past. the girl who doesnt knows what she's doing at that point of time.donwn to be the silly girl who hurt herself to forget what is pain.donwn to have depression again!it took me so hard to get over it..where are euu when i need euu?in the end im just all alone again..
陈绮贞-还是会寂寞曲:陈绮贞词:陈绮贞早已忘了想你的滋味是什么因为每分每秒都被你占据在心中你的一举一动牵扯在我生活的隙缝谁能告诉我离开你的我会有多自由也曾想过躲进别人温暖的怀中可是这么一来就一点意义也没有我的高尚情操一直不断提醒着我离开你的我不论过多久还是会寂寞别对我小心翼翼别让我看轻你跟着我勇敢的走下去别劝我回心转意这不是廉价的爱情看着我对我说真爱我
/* who am i to euu?
hold me TIGHT:and NEVER let go-6:01 PM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
究竟你想什么但眼泪骗不了我
如果是命定恋人为何还要对我
如此这样残忍
记得你曾说过有个爱情迷宫
只要我们能够碰头就能天长地久
如果真的爱我就别管怎么传说
让自尊它无情捉弄
关什么永恒不永恒
我不要自己一个人
去面对未知的迷宫
眼看着幸福就在前头却无法到手
不要自己一个人无助的盲目去摸索
爱你我像个小偷
我可以装做不懂你不爱我
终于有了选择
我不是你的晴空
你的心不爱我
只能继续委屈
做她的替代品
i've changed my blog song again!
=))
another lurvly song i like.
" there is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so. "
a quote given by my korkor.
he said is by william shakespare.
how come i feel that this blog entry is full of emo feeling?
wahaha*
very very long never update about myself le.
has been busy with One-North Residences.
finally fall sick le.
but.. no one to take care of me. =//
mebe that is why i still haven recover after so many days.
nah. its i never see doctor and have enough rest ba.
2weeks into my first full-time job. still okays i guess. theres more things for me to learn and ya. gotta Jiayou~!
went "clubbing" last night.
Fluid Bar & Lounge.
boring; bored!
whahaha*
lucky got my ben.ben to pei me.
((:
thanks! sorry to bring u to a boring place. =x
think none of my bros enjoy too ba.
cos ya. somehow the place cant be a clubbing place ba.
i dunno.
anyway, its an experience bah.
at least my weekend still not that boring ba.
can be better!!!
=DD
going out soon to meet von le.
think there are tons of things for us to catch up.
and i think i need someone to talk to also.
if not i think i dunno when i will breakdown and start crying like a toddler..
all i wish ish to be a bit more happier and healtier.
i really must jiayou!
dunwn to give up so fast!
sorry to worry euu guys.
hope i can pick myself up again.
(:
/* i just wish i can forget the past..
hold me TIGHT:and NEVER let go-1:40 PM
Friday, March 09, 2007
tears are rolling in my eyes.trying to hold them well. dun wana let them flow out.. =xits difficult. the feeling is terriblei hate it.just hate this kinda feeling so much..mebe im too stress le. or mebe im sick and tired.or i just having some emotional moments right now.i dunno.i wanna scream~!
i need a hug so badly.
and a shoulder for me to cry on.
=//
/* hurtz.
hold me TIGHT:and NEVER let go-7:18 PM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
words that are said when euu are sad... =//
1. 我以为小鸟飞不过沧海，是以为小鸟没有飞过沧海的勇气，十年以后我才发现，不是小鸟飞不过去，而是沧海的那一头，早已没有了等待……
2. 你走的那天，我决定不掉泪，迎着风撑着眼帘用力不眨眼……
3. 多谢你的绝情，让我学会死心……
4. 带著一根烟.浪迹天涯……
5. 木头对火说:"抱我"! 火拥抱了木头`木头微笑着化为灰烬! 火哭了!泪水熄灭了自己……当木头爱上烈火注定会被烧伤……
6. 当眼泪流下来，才知道，分开也是另一种明白。
7. 我真的爱你，闭上眼，以为我能忘记，但流下的眼泪，却没有骗到自己……
8. 回家的路上我哭了，眼泪再一次崩溃孓.无能为力这样走着，再也不敢骄傲奢求了。我还能够说些什么，我还能够做些什么？我好希望你会听见， 因为爱你我让你走了……
9. 不要轻易说爱，许下的承诺就是欠下的债！
10. 是我的终究是我的`我终归是你的一个过客 `你始终不爱我`注定我和你就是什么都不会发生` 注定`注定只是注定`不管我怎么跨越 不管我怎么想靠近你 `你还是会离开我的`我好想你`好想好想你`好想好想见你
11. 脸上的快乐，别人看得到。心里的痛又有谁能感觉到.
12. 分手后不可以做朋友,因为彼此伤害过.不可以做敌人.因为彼此深爱过,所以我们变成了最熟悉的陌生人.
13. 有的人与人之间的相遇就像是流星,瞬间迸发出令人羡慕的火花,却注定只是匆匆而过.
14. 时间会慢慢沉淀，有些人会在你心底慢慢模糊。学会放手，你的幸福需要自己的成全。
15. 我能感觉到你的心痛，你有你说不出的无奈...但是你做出一副无所谓的样子，你越是这样我就越难受
16. 有些的时候，正是为了爱才悄悄躲开.躲开的是身影，躲不开的却是那份默默的情怀。
17. 爱到分才显珍贵，很多人都不懂珍惜拥有.只到失去才看到，其实那最熟悉的才是最珍贵的。
18. 有时，爱也是种伤害.残忍的人，选择伤害别人，善良的人，选择伤害自己。
19. 你走了，带着我全部的爱走了，只是一句分手.我忍着眼泪看着你的背影，好想最后在抱你一次，好想在对你说一次"我爱你"。
20. 淋过雨的空气， 疲倦了的伤心，我记忆里的童话已经慢慢的融化。
21.既然爱，为什么不说出口，有些东西失去了，就在也回不来了！
22. 相爱是种感觉，当这种感觉已经不在时，我却还在勉强自己，这叫责任！分手是种勇气！当这种勇气已经不在时，我却还在鼓励自己，这叫悲壮。THANKS Yasu!((:received email from him. open up, its meaningful phrases!
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