very long never blog le. hasnt been good. life is kinda difficult and turning upside down ba. ): what to do, thats life. i wish-ed* fer the better but i dun seems to get it ba. whenever i blog, i always tend to blog it with a heavy heart ;puzzled feelings ;emo. i just dunno why im sucha lousy girl who cry so easily. tears flow like a open water tap. -sigh- mebe im just so sensitive le bah. HELP! i hate to be alone. lonliness is so hard to conquer. i wont be able to withstand it alone. sometimes really wonder how many true friends i have.. why i dun seems to get support when i needed one?
darling's birthday its over. think it isnt a memorable one ba. i just mess up everythg ba. -SORRY! other than apologising i really dunno how le. just hope euu like the pressie and the little surprise i had given euu.-
3rd month anniversary coming le. 2more weeks. afterwhich will be my 20th birthday. no plans. its just another normal weekday. so fast. im turning 20 le. haahs* getting older le. i still haven achieve anythg. ): saddist!
i just wanna be happy. just wanna be happy. why is it so hard to have a happy family? why do i have to face so many problems at home. just so envy when i see others having a wonderful family. -sigh- tong ren bu tong ming.
intro euu peeps 2 new songs. 1) Zhang Dong Liang - Xiao Wu Gui 2) Zhou Hui - Zui Ai both are nice songs! really. xiao wu gui has a very cute mv. watch le just feel so sweet larhs. whereas zui ai i listen le will cry. haahs* below are the mvs. hope euu peeps enjoy. (:
okays. enjoy. ((: gotta go prepare le. meeting gekpeng at causeway. shall blog again. enuff of my ranting and emo le.
*.euuaretheonewhocontrolmyemotion.
hold me TIGHT:and NEVER let go-1:35 PM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
yuppie! i updates my blog song again. hees* (: this time, i have changed to Cry On My Shoulder by Superstars. thou its an old song, but i just lurve it so much. meaningful song i guess. look at the lyrics, euu will feel how i feel when im listening to this song. hope everyone likes it like i do. wahahaha*
purrrr~! i'm still awake! gosh. i gotta wakey at 6, latest 6.15 later larhx. meeting xinhui at her blk to help her with those camp stuff. yups, band camp is tml. not gonna stay overnight, cos somehow dun feel like it and i dun feel well too. dunno why i feel so sick, and my gum is really hurting me. ):
went to work today. kinda blur, or should i say im just so blur lyk sotong? took wrong bus to work! till now i cant figure out why i can see 53 as 89. i saw 89 thats why i board the bus. only realise its wrong when it din go the route that bus89 goes. reach workplace late. sigh~ mebe its because i din eat anythg at all bah. =x
going fer an interview later in the afternoon. got this club member, whom i never met before actually tell my supervisor to let me serve him larhx. so ya, went out to the bar to make the beer he wanted. have a chat with him and he started asking me about getting full-time job and stuff. so yups. he asked me down fer an interview. dunno, the job sound interesting and he sound as thou he going to hire me straight away. haahs* lady-luck is on my side i guess. (: thanks!
i cant find my previous resume and cv. have to redo everythg all over again! but.. i haven started doing in. think i go nap awhile then wake up do before i leave fer the camp. hees* im a last min girl.
had a bad dream last night about darling. told him about it and he just keep on laughing and say im silly. ): humpf* din get to meet him today. and ya, we both dun sound gud either. mebe both of us are tired bah. hope tml will be a better day! (: sorry if i had made euu angry, euu know im just so stubborn and demanding at times. dun take it to heart ya. i dun meant anythg de. as euu know, i lurve euu loads! hearts euu. muacks*
okays larhx. think i need to go nap le. nights. enjoy the songs in my blog and please remember to tag before euu leave. (:
*.darling,6daystoyerBIRTHDAY!
hold me TIGHT:and NEVER let go-2:47 AM
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Shopping Spree! but.. NOT for ME! ):
so sad right? a shopping spree with xinhue but its not fer myself. its fer HIM! yesh, no other than my belurve darling larhx. shop fer his 21st birthday pressie at Queensway Shopping.
(:
THANKS girl fer accompanying me go there on a rainy day. On our way out was already rainning hence her mummy actually gave us an umbrella each. but. we din want it. cos we have this tootpid concept that holding on to an umbrealla its beri AUNTY! haahs* =x anyway, walk out to take cab. yups, we cab to queensway. (: hees*
reach there, start to hunt fer pressie le. bought a few mummums to eat also. we both have itchy mouths. =D
i cant say what i bought from there as i know dear, euu will read my blog de. wahahaha*
anyway, din shop fer myself cos i never really go notice whats in there fer girlies. sob* my mind is all guy's stuff!
wana go back JP from there. but we are actually lost! hence called up my lifeline fer help. know what my lifeline said to me? "aiya, take a cab back larhx, i'll pay euu." yupps, we actually earn a cab back to JP this way. muacks* dear, i know euu lurve me de. ((:
went popular, bought some stuff. erm. cant say what isit fer again. ): aiyo. i wana say out lei. but hais. shall only reveal after this sunday bah. if not it wont be a surprise anymore. hees* meet up with darl there. and yupps, he fetch me and meimei back home.
oh yah, i bought something frm a pushcart also. its super-duper damn cute and sweet! =D
i really wonder if darl will cry after seeing all those pressies larhx.
had fun shopping with euu girl, thanks fer accompanying me. and ya, i will need to trouble euu to help me to do that "Major Project" this few days. so dun mind me to go bother euu hor? wahaha*
muacks* i lurve euu too girl.
okays larhs.
i shall end here.
having back toothache. i think this time my widsom tooth is really growing!
=x
/. dear,7daystoyer21stbirthdayle. (:
hold me TIGHT:and NEVER let go-1:11 AM
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
i hate the feeling im having now. i hate it when i just feel so lost and empty. i wana stop my mind from running wild. i wana stop my tears from flowing down. why? why do euu have to let me know euu actually told a lie?
mebe i shouldnt look thru yer phone. mebe i shouldnt be so attentive and spot the "mistake". im just feeling so shit now. i wish-ed* i din spot anythg. there's no way im gonna bluff myself thru and pretend nothg has happened.
im jealous. im sad. im disappointed. euu actually told a lie about that phone call. please tell me its isnt so. please tell me im wrong, im over-sensitive. please..
oh gosh! im emo. ): tears keep flowing down. shall end here. im just here to rant out my thoughts. just need somewhere to bottle my feelings. my heart is no longer spacious to fill my woes. hais..
doeuuknoweuubrokemyheart?
hold me TIGHT:and NEVER let go-10:57 PM
Gareth Gates - Say It Isn't So
Heading for tomorrow I wave goodbye to yesterday Wipe the tears you hide your face Blinded by the sorrow How can I be smiling like before When baby you don't love me anymore
Say it isn't so Tell me you're not leaving Say you've changed your mind now That I am only dreaming That this is not goodbye This is starting over If you wanna know I don't wanna let go So say it isn't so
Tempt to find but at least we've tried We're still alive with hopes this time As they closed the door behind you We're so alone and time stands still Shake the ground beneath the wheels as I wish I'd never found you Wohoh How can I be smiling when you go Will I be strong enough to carry on
Say it isn't so Tell me you're not leaving Say you've changed your mind now That I am only dreaming That this is not goodbye This is starting over If you wanna know I don't wanna let go So say it isn't so
Miles, miles to go Before I can sail Before I can nail my love for you to sleep Oh darling I get miles, miles to go Before anyone will ever hear me laugh again
Say it isn't so Tell me you're not leaving Say you've changed your mind now That I am only dreaming That this is not goodbye This is starting over If you wanna know I don't wanna let go So say it isn't so
heard this song from someone's friendster. den search my wmp den realise i actually got this song. looking at the lyrics while listening to this song, really find this song a very nice song. know its an old song but still wana post to share this song with euu peeps. enjoy! (:
hold me TIGHT:and NEVER let go-3:07 PM
Monday, June 04, 2007
no topic. blanks. lost. i wish i can know myself well. ): -sigh- jobless fer the 2nd week le. hasnt been serious about job hunting. REASONS: nvr think that i will get out of job, hence i din actually go and plan the next step in my life. how i wish-ed* i had plan the other route well rather then standing here fer so long when thing goes wrong. been thinking im so useless lor. everyone's working and im home sleeping. lyk wat von said, take it as a short break and move on when i've enough rest. THANKS everyone who is there fer me when im down and keeping a lookout fer me too. -hugs & lurve-
a bit contradicting now. should i or should i not? i lurve my previous work place. the people i work with. but. the pay they gonna pay me is kinda low. hubby knows i lurve the job alot. haahs* but he also thinks that the amount i get back after CPF is not enough fer me to use. even my daddy said that too. )): how? if i work i wont be able to meet my darl le. -sigh-
work i will get income. dun work i will get $0.
work i wont get to see darl so often or actually we wont get to see each other at all. obviously dun work i can see him larhx.
if work my parents wont nag at me. dun work i get naggings everyday!
how how how?
someone pls enlighten me. im just so lost now. ):
hold me TIGHT:and NEVER let go-10:58 PM
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All of my life
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